Reflections of an Artist: Fine Art Photography with a Splash of Prose (19) – Withdrawal from Freedom

A sweet williams flower bud just opening its petals. It's surrounded by withering flowers.

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This is the last photo I’m going to share from my 6-week trip to Guatemala. It’s sad – like I’m leaving all over again.

A flower bud bursting into life in a sea of rotting petals. That’s what this trip was to me, a breath of fresh air (if you don’t count the chicken bus exhaust I probably inhaled haha) in a life of boring monotony.

Coming home to obligations after having so much freedom was painful the way I hear withdrawal is. No more waking up to infinite possibilities. Back to spending the best hours of the day running out all of my energy until I’m a sleepy pile of mush.

Sorry to get all dark and dreary on you, but it’s how I felt. I’m ok now, but I’m still not accepting my life for what it is. Now I’m working even harder to get back to that place… permanently. I crave freedom and there’s no 12-steppin’ program that’ll get rid of my addiction.

 

P.S. You may think I’m being over dramatic… but I call that having passion. What are you passionate about? Leave a comment and let me know below.

 

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Reflections of an Artist: Fine Art Photography with a Splash of Prose (18) – Star Gazing Memories

A pink sweet willliams flower bud that has only partially opened into a star shape.

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Enveloped in a sleeping bag I could easily imagine I was floating on a cloud. Then I would move, or breathe, or sigh, and the springs would shriek in my ear – dragging me back to reality. I was just in the backyard, on the trampoline, contemplating the unknown in the dark, inky sky.

Stars have always intrigued me, since the first wishes the nursery rhymes coaxed out of me, through the nights of UFO seeking, to the day I discovered that the light from most stars has traveled billions of years to reach our eyes. The night sky is, in fact, a window to billions of years in the past and that realization still amazes me.

So, naturally, when I find a star in a flower just opening up to the world it’s something I just have to grab and keep forever.

 

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Reflections of an Artist: Fine Art Photography with a Splash of Prose (11) – Sky Kisses Fire

Sky Kisses Fire

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Twenty-four hours before my flight back to NY I felt desperate. Desperate to stay, desperate to go, and desperate to capture every detail of my Guatemalan existence.

This was the hand-carved dresser that was in my room. Every day the sun would crawl across the wall, slide down the wood, and by afternoon had reached the orangey tile on the floor

On the floor that bright, slanted box served two purposes: it made a wonderfully warm spot for my chilly feet and it threw a beautiful fiery glow right back at the blue daylight above.

 

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Reflections of an Artist: Fine Art Photography with a Splash of Prose (5) – Egyptian Star Flower

Pink Egyptian Star Flower

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Not more than 100 feet off the shore of Lake Atitlan, I crouched over the swaying flowers in the late afternoon sun.

The wind was bittersweet. Even at 5,125 feet the sun is hot in Guatemala and my skin welcomed the air, but keeping the teeny tiny flowers in the frame of my camera and in focus presented its own challenge.

It’s not often I find myself outside photographing flowers. I hate the harsh natural light most hours of the day. The garden at my hotel was breathtaking though, so I took the opportunity to make it my playground for the day.

 

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Reflections of an Artist: Fine Art Photography with a Splash of Prose – (4) Up Close & Sensual

Up Close & Sensual

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I tossed the velvety scarf into the air and, when it landed, I explored its curves with my camera.

After many attempts at molding the fabric into the sexy scene I envisioned, I finally gave up on sculpting and decided to give randomness a try.

The result is a bit more up close and sensual than my initial idea, but I’ll take it because it was given to me! If something’s not working sometimes it’s worth it to stop forcing the issue and just let it all flow.

Now if I could only relax and apply that theory to life, well that would be a miracle!

 

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