Art Ink – 28 – A Whale’s Tale – A Short Story Inspired by Ania Archer’s Haiku Poems

 

 

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Artist and Haiku Poet: Ania Archer

Title of Art: There is no planet B

Ania’s Instagram: @ania_archer

Sunshine Inspired Fauna Challenge on Instagram: @sunshine_inspired_fauna

 

Find out more about whale and porpoise conservation at us.whales.org

 

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Art Ink Podcast Transcript:

 

[Intro:]

 

Hey there! Thanks for joining me for what is truly a mixed bag of magick that I’ve got lined up for you right now. Today I’m so grateful to be introducing our first poetry-inspired show. That’s right, the story I’m going to share with you today, which is family-friendly, I might add, was inspired by six ocean-themed haikus written by my artsy friend Ania Archer.

 

She’s an animal lover, an advocate for conservation, and the creator of the Sunshine Inspired Fauna Challenge on Instagram, which brings awareness to endangered species of animals by collaborating with artists. If you’re interested in participating, you can find out more @sunshine_inspired_fauna.

 

Not only is Ania a poet and a change-maker, but she’s also the artist behind today’s cover art, which completes the magick trifecta I was eluding to just a minute ago.

 

So let’s dive in to look at that before we get this story started!

 

 

[Art Description:]

 

An illustration of Mother Earth, centered on the Atlantic Ocean, is adorned with some of the largest and smallest of her creations. We can see much of North and South America to the left and most of Africa to the right.

 

The northeastern region of the blue and green globe is covered by a bouquet of flowers; an orange tea rose, a pink peony, and a yellow poppy. A large green monstera leaf, intricately carved by natural design, rests behind them. Seemingly swimming across the bottom quarter of the planet is a larger than life humpback whale, curving around the Earth like a crescent moon.

 

Across the center of the digital design are the words, in white, “There is no planet B.”

 

Ania has always held a special place in her heart for the creatures inhabiting our oceans. That’s why it’s no surprise that when she shared her book of haikus with me they were filled with glimpses of the sea and its magnificent creatures.

 

As I read each poem a story started to grow, and that’s how Ahjah, the young blue whale swam into this stream of consciousness and now into your ears. I give you:

 

A Whale’s Tale – Inspired Ania Archer’s Haiku Poems

 

[Story:]

 

 

Part 1

 

#4

Ocean breeze around

touches clouds in the blue sky

mirrored in the waves

 

#21

Diving into deep

blue whale dreams of clean waters

filled with abundance

 

 

“Why did Gramma have to go?”

 

“Human season is a bit tough for her, Ahjee, your grandmother isn’t exactly fond of the creatures.” Balou paused to open his mouth as they swam through a particularly dense cloud of plankton.

 

“What’s she got against humans?” Ahjah was genuinely perplexed. Human season was her favorite time of year. She was especially fond of the chubby-cheeked small ones, and she usually only saw those when they migrated closer to the equator where the days were longer and warmer. Ahjah liked to swim with the humans. They were kind, docile animals, and the small ones were endlessly entertaining. Once, she even touched one, and when she looked into its eyes she saw a depth in them that was hard to describe.

 

“Well, she had quite the scare when she was just a calf, got herself stuck in human net, she did… but luckily she managed to break free or else neither of us would be here swimming as we are.”

 

“A net? What’s that papa?”

 

“Ah, that’s right, little one…” Balou said, and Ahjah could sense the proudness within the vibrations he was sending her way. “I’m glad you’ve never had a need to know.”

 

They swam for a bit longer in silence until Ahjah could no longer contain her curiosity. “So what is it?”

 

“Oh, well… it’s a bit scary, Ahjee… are you sure you want to know?”

 

Ahjah tipped herself upwards and then quickly back down in a full body nod.

 

“When your grandmother was your age the sea was riddled with far more dangers then there are now. The nets were used to drag fish from the sea, and those who got caught, well… they were rarely ever seen again.”

 

“And the humans did that?”

 

“I’m afraid so.”

 

Ahjah couldn’t eat after that, she felt sick thinking about those poor fish, and her poor Gramma; no wonder she’d swum out of there like an octopus out of an ink cloud at the first sign of humans.

 

They swam upwards, breeching the surface for a big breath of air. Once they dipped back beneath the waves, Balou finally broke the silence. “Did I ever tell you the story of how I met Tuttle?”

 

Ahjah looked at her father expectantly and he went on. “It wasn’t just the nets we had to avoid back then, there were also the island traps…”

 

 

Part 2

 

#25

Plastic filled ocean
floating in the deep waters

tricks the living critters

 

#37

Deeply in love

mother whale swims with her calf

Ocean is her world

 

 

Balou swam ahead of his mother as far as she would allow. He knew he’d heard… something… but the static was loud today. The extra humans on the surface always made the white noise get louder, but the floating mass of human debris that stretched endlessly above added to the noise in a big way. A rustling, clacking, clattering cacophony that increased steadily the further beneath the island they swam.

 

“That’s enough Balou, we must go back now.”

 

“But I know I heard something… just let me go a little further.”

 

“I don’t know how you can hear anything beneath all this racket. I haven’t heard a thing.”

 

Balou had slowed considerably, looking out into the dark waters ahead for any sign of movement. The dense island above blocked out most of the sunlight though, so it was difficult to see much of anything. He wanted to go on, but he knew his mother’s limits.

 

“Help!”

 

“You heard it that time, didn’t you?” Balou asked as he scanned the hulking shadow above. “It’s coming from up there.” He said, already moving to swim upwards.

 

“Don’t you dare go up there, Balou. You’ll be trapped!”

 

“But someone up there needs help mother!” And he shot toward the surface.

 

“Balou, no!” Her fear froze her for just a split second before motherly instinct took over and she followed quickly after her son.

 

At almost that same moment, a deep rumble added to the deafening drone that was always more apparent the closer they got to the surface.

 

Balou’s mother felt a wave of panic as she saw what it was, and despite knowing that Balou was already too far ahead to pick up on her vibrations she still yelled out a warning with as much force as she could muster. “Boat!!!”

 

***

 

Ahjah gasped, eyes wide.

 

“Don’t worry, Ahjee,” Balou said when he saw the fear in his daughter’s eyes, “you know Tuttle’s just fine.”

 

Ahjah relaxed, letting her breath back out in a grateful sigh at the reminder. “Was there a human in the boat? Was it a bad one?”

 

“Yes there was, and I’ll admit, I thought that sea turtle was done for when I saw that man in the boat reaching for him. Your grandmother had always warned me about the creatures, my whole life she did.”

 

“So what happened? Was that why Tuttle had been yelling for help?”

 

“No, no… well perhaps maybe he was yelling a bit more frantically as the human approached…” Balou let out a chuckle before he continued. “But he was originally yelling because the island had grabbed ahold of his flipper when he’d gone up for a breath of air and he was stuck. But that human, you know what he did?”

 

Ahjah swam in closer to her father as she looked at him expectantly.

 

“He used some kind of tool to free Tuttle’s flipper, and he swam out of there faster than I’ve ever seen any sea turtle move before, so fast in fact that he crashed right into my chin in his attempt to escape. He nearly knocked himself out!” Balou chuckled some more. “Tuttle and I have been friends ever since.”

 

“But if Gramma was with you when that happened, then why is she still afraid of humans?”

 

“That experience, my dear, is the only reason she doesn’t insist I completely forbid you from swimming anywhere near the creatures… but she’d still rather keep her own distance I suppose. It’s a bit sad, but sometimes old stories die hard.” Balou sighed.

 

“Ah but you haven’t even heard what else happened that day…” He paused for suspense. “More humans showed up in their boats, and the sound was deafening. We wouldn’t have heard a school of barracuda behind us if they were only a fin away, but by the time they’d come and gone a few times they’d taken the entire island trap with them. It was quieter in that ocean than I’d ever heard after they left, and they’d gone just in time for sunset too. It was the most beautiful day in my memory.”

 

Ahjah and Balou swam in silence for some time after that. Balou as he remembered, and Ahjah as she imagined, what a beautiful day that had been indeed.

 

 

Part 3

 

#45

In the vast ocean

a little pod of dolphins

plays in the wild waves

 

#46

Black and white creature

in the boundless blue ocean

leaps in happiness

 

 

[Conclusion:]

 

And that’s the world I want to leave you with. Although this was a fictional story, it doesn’t have to be.

 

We can each stand to make more sustainable choices in our everyday lives. If we buy more plant-based foods there will be less fishing nets out there to do harm. By recycling and reusing all that we can, there will be less plastic making its way into the ocean. If we shop as local as possible, there will be less need for shipments across oceans, which is one of the several causes of noise pollution that hinder many sea creature’s ability to communicate and navigate.

 

The Earth can actually heal herself, but it’d be a lot easier for her to get better if we were working with her rather than against her. Let’s each do our part.

 

Visit us.whales.org if you want to learn more about the multitude of mammals we share our oceans with and how you can contribute to creating a cleaner, healthier habitat for them.

 

And if you’re interested in using your art for good, you can always join Ania’s Sunshine Inspired Fauna Challenge over @sunshine_inspired_fauna on Instagram to help bring awareness to endangered species around the world and the organizations that are working to conserve them.

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Art Ink – 20 – How Castor Found Pollux – A Short Story Inspired by Hannah Pearman’s Art

 

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Artist: Hannah Pearman

Title of Art: Castor, Pollux

Instagram: @hannahandthecosmos

 

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Art Ink Podcast Transcript:

 

[Intro:]

 

Welcome back, my friends, to a brand new episode of Art Ink! I feel like this is a repeating theme in this podcast lately, but the idea for this story was first scribbled into my notebook almost exactly a year ago.

 

I know I often describe my inspirations for stories as if they are that typical instantaneous cliché when I see art; like a lightning strike or the proverbial apple upon Isaac Newton’s head. But the truth is, many more stories are more like a long hike into the pathless woods.

 

I love abstract art so much, but sometimes it’s harder for me to find a true connection to the artist’s intention. Or at least that’s the story I tell myself when I’m feeling insecure.

 

But some artists make it a little bit easier for me when they do one simple thing: when they title their work! I won’t lie; using an artwork’s title is my go-to reference point to help me decide which direction to take my stories. So my advice today for you artists out there, even if you’re uncomfortable writing about your art at this time, at the very least, give your art titles – you’d be surprised how that small thing can help people form a connection with your work!

 

I want to thank today’s artist, for giving me those breadcrumbs to follow in today’s featured art.

 

Hannah Pearman, the artist behind @HannahandtheCosmos on Instagram, creates gorgeously galactic art that blows me out of this world every time I look at any of it. And because her own artist statement so succinctly expresses the why behind Hannah’s work, I wanted to share it with you:

 

“It was under a slightly different, though no less mesmerizing, canopy of constellations that Hannah discovered the transformative power of a paintbrush. Hours of stargazing with her father at home in New Zealand inspired a deep respect for the conversation between control and chaos and, in turn, art became the phrasebook for translating it.

 

Her work is one part longing for the glow-in-the-dark star-covered bedroom ceiling of her childhood, and three parts surrender to the miraculous confluence of choice and chance that makes the human experience so beautiful.

 

Through creative exploration of spectral peculiarities, Hannah is working her grasp around the enormity of the universe in which we’re suspended. Each piece is a whisper of gratitude, a way back home, and a wink to the cosmos.”

 

I don’t know about you, but I connect so much to these 3 simple paragraphs. I too had those glow in the dark stars in my childhood bedroom. And I’m in awe of the idea that such beautiful paintings are the result of control AND chaos… though as an artist myself I’ve experienced the magical balance of that formula in my own work too.

 

Anyway, my friends, please make sure you check out the cover art of today’s episode to get a glimpse of Hannah’s work. But as usual, before we take off into the story segment of this show, I will attempt to give those of you unable to look right now, a glimpse of Hannah’s art crudely re-painted with my words.

 

 

[Art Description:]

 

There are two paintings featured on today’s cover. Both are square and painted on 6×6 inch birch panels, and both were created from a similar color palette: covered in multiple shades of blue, aqua, purple, pink, and white.

The painting on the left, titled Castor, is a bit darker, and uses a bit more navy and deep violet. The center left area in the piece looks like a black hole, and wispy cloudlike tendrils lighten to a medium purple around its edges where they reach out into the brighter areas of the painting in the top third and right half of the panel. This is where more wispy cloudlike shapes of white and pink and aqua swirl into one another. Some dollops of white are clustered around the edge of the black hole, like stars just about to be sucked in.

 

Pollux, the painting on the right, is bit more vibrant than Castor. There is a thick band of navy blue depth in the bottom quarter of the piece, but it quickly transitions upwards into a cerulean blue and then into a galactic cloud of aqua in the right middle area. To the left the blue cloud bleeds into a pink area that’s swirled with white. And above that same blue cloud its wisps seep into the bright white top right corner. A lake of pink in the white branches out into thin, river-like veins. The top left corner of the panel holds a purple galactic cloud that merges with the pink and white below and to the right of it.

 

So there you have Castor and Pollux, and if you thought they sounded like ear candy, be sure to check them out with your eyes, as they are much more beautiful than I could ever describe.

 

And with that my friends, I’ll lead you into my imagination for a little while.

 

This is the story of How Castor Found Pollux

 

[Story:]

 

Castor couldn’t believe what he was hearing; it was him… yet not him at all. Though the voice was lispy, and soft, it was unmistakably his own… just nicer somehow. Like a super nice caricature of himself. Castor imagined himself in an ugly sweater and glasses, then shook his head to unsee that image. It wasn’t pretty.

 

“Nobody loves Castor more than I do,” said the disembodied voice that was simultaneously him and not him.

 

Now shit was starting to get weird, Castor thought. He looked up from the handheld recorder on the desk and locked gazes with his shrink, Dr. Shelly. His eyes were wide with surprise, but hers were deadpanning him in an I-told-you-so kind of way.

 

“And, why do you think that Carl?” past Shelly asked through the speakers.

 

“Well because I’m the only one who forgives him for everything.”

 

“What do you forgive him for?” And then there was click, and the white noise hissing through the air suddenly went dead.

 

“Wait, what did he say?” Castor was at the edge of his seat, ready to spring up from the anticipation. Only seconds ago he’d barely believed Dr. Shelly’s claims, but the proof was undisputable. Someone lived inside of him… a stranger… but the scariest part was that he had absolutely no recollection of the conversation that had apparently happened just minutes ago.

 

“Nothing, that was when you came back.”

 

It wasn’t until that moment that Castor realized his jaw was hanging open. He closed his mouth and swallowed. His impulse to deny the diagnosis didn’t go away, but his faith in that belief was rapidly diminishing with the evidence still echoing in his ears.

 

“I recommend you start recording yourself,” Dr. Shelly said, “I suspect there are more—”

 

“More?!?” Castor’s eyes were bulging again, and his mouth hung open wide, as if he was a toddler waiting for a spoonful of applesauce.

 

“Well, I don’t know for sure but in most recorded cases of dissociative identity disorder there are usually more than one alter.

 

The gaping hole in Castor’s face transformed as his lips pulled into a tight, thin line. “Ok,” he forced through gritted teeth, “but why do I have to record them? Isn’t that your job?”

 

“I will continue to do so, yes, but the truth is that some of them may not be willing to come out in front of a stranger. What you’re able to discover on your own may help us to save all the time it would take for me to build up trust with these parts of yourself that have been repressed.

 

“Once we determine your triggers we’ll be able to work through the trauma that’s causing them, which will eventually help you to stay present and prevent future instances of memory loss.”

 

Castor nodded. Looked down.

 

“You’ve been through a lot of trauma Castor, your mind is just doing its best to protect you.”

 

When he looked back up again, Dr. Shelly was pushing a slip of paper across her desk. “Here, that’s my recommendation for a mic. It’s wireless and you can record right to your phone.”

 

Castor nodded again and reached for the paper.

 

“The next time you have one of your memory blips, listen back, and maybe you’ll get an answer to what happened.”

 

Castor left Dr. Shelly’s office without another word. He drove to the electronics store in silence, but in his head that strange lispy version of his own voice was playing on repeat. Could it be possible that there were more “alters” trapped inside of him? How many of him—them were there? Would he really be able to capture them with this plan?

 

It felt so ridiculous to Castor. He may as well have been purchasing equipment for a ghost hunt… why didn’t he get a night vision camera too so he could start a reality show and entertain people while he was at it.

 

He found the tiny microphone that Dr.Shelly had recommended, and as he brought it up to the counter, Castor felt suddenly embarrassed as if the cashier could hear the slew of secrets circling through his head. But luckily, the teenager who checked him out was more interested in her own phone than in anything Castor was buying, and she only glanced at the packaging long enough to find the bar code.

 

Castor couldn’t get out of his own head, though, despite the momentary relief of not being judged by anyone, because he was too busy judging himself. Was this what life had come to for him? On his way to hunt his own inner demons armed with nothing but a Bluetooth microphone?

 

Suddenly, another thought occurred to Castor, one that worried him far more than the humiliation of playing ghost hunter. Did this mean that he was crazy? Would they commit him if he couldn’t find and extinguish the people trapped inside him?

 

When he got home a few minutes later, Castor had already decided that he couldn’t let that happen. He dumped the plastic shopping bag onto the couch, and when the receipt swayed down through the air like a falling feather, a realization clicked into place. It wasn’t just his memory loss that now made sense, but all of those random charges to his credit card could be explained away by this diagnosis too. Castor ripped open the packaging and connected the mic to his phone, then clipped it to his shirt.

 

When he hit record all of his remaining energy drained out of him.

 

He considered going to sleep but knew that he’d just end up restlessly awake before the sun was up if he went to bed now. So instead he dropped onto the couch, turning on some mindless entertainment he’d already seen dozens of times. And that was the problem, because there was nothing to occupy his mind on the screen, and so he kept ruminating on Carl’s and Dr. Shelly’s conversation – before his mind ran off in worse case scenario tangents (like what if there was an evil, murderous sociopath that’d been regularly taking over his body) before circling back to the elephant-sized fact that there were more people he didn’t know hiding inside of him, just waiting to use him and abuse him just beyond his awareness.

 

Castor grew uncomfortable and turned away from the TV. It was growing dark outside and the multi-colored lights from the screen flickered around on the ceiling. His eyes blinked slowly… until they fell closed a final time.

 

***

 

Castor is racing down the winding mountain road, stirring up freshly fallen leaves as he passes. Both windows are down and the cool dry air is dancing his shaggy hair into a frenzy. The whooshing air competes with the pounding music that’s blasting through the Mustang’s souped up speakers.

 

He looks over to the seat beside him, and the expression on PJ’s face is like a zap of lightning to his memory. Looking at PJ, his twin, is like a looking into a carnival mirror. They’re identical, but PJ’s personality twists his face into a goofy mask. PJ is the smiley mask to Castor’s frowny one. But this isn’t real, and Castor knows that. He knows he’s dreaming, so he let’s go of the wheel and leans back as he stares at his brother long and hard. Right now PJ is sticking his tongue out like he’s at a Kiss concert, one hand out the window letting the wind fly through his fingers.

 

Castor examines every inch of Pollux James’s face: the dimple between his cheek and chin, the lines being laughed around his eyes, the way the dappled, rapidly changing orbs of sunshine dance through the trees and onto his face. PJ will bob his head once… twice… three more times in slow motion before Castor has to close his eyes for impact.

 

Shutting his eyes used to wake him up, but now it just dulls the one sense. Soon the impact will explode into his ears: the squealing, the crunching of car… and bone. After two agonizing seconds of very real pain he’ll wake up. And though his eyelids curtain the scene, Castor’s memory replays it, only a bit more dully, in time with the orchestra of senses he can’t turn off.

 

Finally, the pain comes, sharpening to unbearable, before fizzling out into the now comforting pins and needles that vibrate across every bit of his skin. He stays still until it passes. A few minutes later he finally turns to look at the clock; it’s 4:44 a.m.

 

***

 

Castor came to and the bright light was jarring. He was doing dishes? The last thing he had remembered was waking up from his night terror, and now it was well after noon, judging by the angle of sunlight being reflected off of his stainless steel sink. He dropped the sponge and the silverware he’d been scrubbing back into the sink and turned off the faucet.

 

He looked down to see that he was still in his clothes from yesterday and he was relieved to see the tiny mic still clipped to the front of his shirt. Then Castor swept his gaze over the countertop in search of his phone… and there it was. He grabbed it and sat down as he navigated to the recording app.

 

The oven clock confirmed what Castor had suspected, it was 2:32. He quickly did the math to figure out where he should start listening. He’d been out for nearly 10 hours. The app was set by default to start recording a new mp3 file every hour on long recordings; it was a failsafe to protect against the occasional glitch. But it also made it easy for Castor to count back to the file he wanted to start at.

 

He took in a deep breath and slowly let it out. Then he leaned over his phone and hit play.

 

All of Castor’s anticipation seemed to be for nothing, though. Listening to his recording was like listening to one long butt-dial. He heard rustling fabric against the microphone, a random thump here and there, and lot of him just breathing.

 

After the first half hour Castor got up to brew a pot of coffee. By two hours in he’d drunk the whole pot and had to put his hands flat on the counter to stop them from shaking.

 

He didn’t know what he’d been expecting, but sitting around intently listening to absolutely nothing was not how he’d envisioned this day going. But it wasn’t like he had anything else to do.

 

Castor worked from home, though to say he worked at all since the accident was an absolute joke. It’d been six months. Six months since his best friend died. Since he’d killed his other half. Castor shook his head at that, Dr. Shelly wouldn’t be happy to hear him say that. But he hadn’t said those words aloud since the first time she’d chastised him. Thankfully she couldn’t hear his thoughts, because he couldn’t think about PJ without feeling the inevitable guilt that was now attached to their last moment together. There was no doubt in Castor’s head that his brother would still be alive if it wasn’t for his own negligence, and no amount of therapy would ever change that.

 

Suddenly a voice pulled Castor from his thoughts, “So you think you’re better than us, is that it Carl?”

 

“That’s not what I said, Ralph.”

 

“Then what were you trying to say? Because it sounded a lot like you were glorifying yourself—and putting the rest of us down.”

 

Another voice came through, “Or maybe he was just trying to get Dr. Shelly to warm up to him. Got news for you Carl – the little blue pill she makes you swallow isn’t going to discriminate, you’ll be gone too, despite your godlike forgiveness.”

 

“What does it even matter if we’re all going to die anyway?” That was a new voice too; slow and subdued.

 

“Why be shy if we’re all gonna die?!?” Yet another caricature of Castor’s voice came through the speaker, this one amused. “Heh, heh,” he snickered.

 

A low growl began, and it quickly escalated until a loud thump concluded it. It was like someone had brought their fist down upon a solid surface; the counter or Castor’s desk maybe?

 

“Calm yourself, Ogre,” someone chastised, it sounded like Ralph, “we’re not going to die guys… Steve, stop being such an asshole!”

 

“I dunno, maybe Steve’s right about the pills… what other outcome could there be… we knew we were at risk the moment we saw the doctor.” The melancholy one said.

 

“Big belly Shelly,” the amused one snickered.

 

“Why do you think I was trying to get on her good side, fellas? I wanted her to know that we’re here to help Castor.” Carl sighed.

 

“Maybe we need to disappear for awhile—make her think we’re gone so she’ll lay off for a bit,” Ralph said, but he didn’t wait for a response before he continued. “Yeah, that’s what we’ll do. Do you all think you can keep your mouths shut for the next couple of weeks?

 

“Oh that’s a great idea… let’s just repress ourselves why don’t we? Why don’t we just get ahold of a sleeping pill ‘script and off ourselves right now?” Steve deadpanned.

 

“How could you suggest such a thing?” Carl said.

 

“Stay away and our souls may stray.” It sounded to Castor like the jokey poet was agreeing with Steve in his own cryptic way.

 

“Andy’s right,” the sad sounding one drawled, “if we stay away too long, we’re likely to disappear on our own.”

 

“GRRRRRR!!!” Orge growled in agreement.

 

“Don’t worry, Tom, we won’t stay away long enough to let that happen. The point isn’t to off ourselves,” Ralph argued, “it’s to get her off our backs until we can give Castor Pollux’s message.”

 

Castor gripped both arms of his chair. “Pollux?” he whispered.

 

“It’s impossible,” the sad one sighed. “Castor never remembers his dreams… at least not the good ones… and he never remembers us.”

 

The white noise of the recording rolled on into infinity after that, but no one else spoke. Castor sat expectantly for the first few minutes, waiting for more, but eventually his mind wandered off to run in its own circles.

 

He’d counted six distinct voices in that recording, including the growly one they called Ogre. Six people inside of him; people with the ability to shut him down, put him on standby so they could have their own little private pow-wow. It was frightening to think that they had that much control over him… even more terrifying to consider that they’d been hiding inside of him all this time.

 

But they were him, according to Dr. Shelly. That they appeared and acted separately from him was just a defense mechanism his body had implemented in order to help him deal with the trauma of losing PJ.

 

PJ… they’d said they had a message from him.

 

And what did they mean when they said he couldn’t remember his dreams? He had the same damn dream every night—a dream he wished he could forget.

 

Castor suddenly felt torn. His next move should be to send this file to Dr. Shelly… but they didn’t trust her… and if they were really just a part of him… then should Castor trust her? It looked like he was outnumbered 6 to 1.

 

But who was Castor kidding? That was just a convenient justification. Because if those strange little voices claimed to have a message from his brother, then they were right about one thing: he had to keep them alive until he got it.

 

Castor marched over to his computer. He placed his phone within hearing range, although nobody was talking at the moment, there were still hours of recordings for him to listen to and so he let the soft static play on. Then he turned to his monitor and pulled open a browser window.

 

“How to… remember… your dreams,” Castor said as he typed into the search bar.

 

He scrolled through the list of results but quickly became frustrated with the answers. He didn’t have time to sit around and meditate on his intention and write in a goddamned dream journal.

 

“How to remember your dreams quickly,” Castor tried, disappointed to see that many of the same websites were coming up. In the preview text of one new site, the author suggested drinking massive amounts of water so that your bladder would naturally wake you at the end of your dream cycle. That sounded annoying, and Castor suspected he was more likely to just piss the bed than to wake up and remember his dream, but at least it was something he had time to try.

 

A familiar low growl rose up into the air, alongside a fumbling sort of rustling made up of soft thumps and swooshing static. Castor lifted his phone to his ear.

 

“Hey fellas, look what Ogre found!” Carl called out.

 

“What is it?” Tom asked.

 

“It’s a microphone.” Ralph said.

 

“Well hallelujah,” Steve said sarcastically, “our oppressor is listening… say hello to your girlfriend, Carl.”

 

“Big belly shelly?” Andy asked, but his tone was lacking its usual amusement; he just sounded afraid.

 

“I don’t think so, fellas… well maybe, eventually, she’ll hear it, but we’re home, not at the doctor’s office.”

 

“You’re right, Castor must be recording this himself.” Ralph realized. “Castor if you can hear us, do not give Shelly this recording. You need all of us to go home.”

 

“Calea tea-uh! Calea tea-uh!” Andy said.

 

“Oh, of course, the Calea tea.” said Carl.

 

“We put it in cupboard.” Steve continued, and for once it sounded like his dry humor might have evaporated.

 

Castor was up and walking towards the kitchen before Tom could say, “You should drink a cup right now.” And he sounded almost happy.

 

“You should drink many cups,” Ralph added, “it’ll help Pollux to connect with you tonight. He’s not dead, Castor, just out of touch.”

 

Ogre barked out an agreement.

 

Castor yanked at the cabinet door in front of him, and there it was. A giant bag of tea leaves labeled “Calea Zacatechichi.” In smaller letters beneath it said “Mexican dream herb.”

 

How Castor had not noticed it was a testament to his recent tunnel vision. The bag was right next to his coffee, which he used daily. He opened the tea and sniffed; it had a peppery smell. May as well give it a go.

 

First the first time in a long time, Castor finally felt like he had a purpose. Interesting to note that his dissociative identities had been the ones to cheer him up. Using the technical term for his “condition” brought him back into the doctor’s office; Dr. Shelly would have a field day with that little tidbit. She acted professional and all that, but there was a gleam in her eye when she’d diagnosed him. Castor guessed conditions like his were probably rare, so he couldn’t really blame her. But he also couldn’t help feeling resentful about being her lucky little lab rat.

 

He put the bag down and glanced down at his phone to see if the play head was still moving. The boys had been silent for a while… but the seconds were still ticking away— he guessed they were done for now. Maybe for the day. But you never know, so Castor let the silent file play on, as he made his way to the sink to fill the teapot.

 

Castor took a sip and scrunched his nose. Despite it’s appetizing smell, the stuff tasted bitter. He had no idea how he was going to get down a single cup of it, let alone several.

 

Maybe some lemon would make it better? He squeezed a hefty splash from the tiny bottle he kept in the fridge. He tentatively took a sip, and it was still awful. Sugar it is then, he decided, but even after four heaping spoonfuls, though improved, it was still barely tolerable.

 

Over the course of the next few hours, Castor drank as much of the nasty tea as he could while listening to the remaining audio he’d recorded the previous day. Aside from the occasional rustle though, nothing more came from his six new friends.

 

Castor questioned himself at that thought. Could they be his friends if they were actually a part of himself? It was strange, but now that he was aware of them he felt a sort of attachment to them. The thought of handing them over to Dr. Shelly didn’t sit right with him. They were afraid of her, because she wanted to get rid of them. He couldn’t help but empathize with them. What if it were him who was to be annihilated from existence? He was sure he’d feel the same.

 

He was glad he had some time to think things through before his next appointment. Time to get to the bottom of what his new “friends” were trying to tell him. Castor wasn’t sure he totally believed everything they were telling him. And some of it most certainly confused him. But knowing that Pollux still existed somewhere and that there was a chance he’d be able to talk to him again burned a flame of hope in him so bright, that he could easily look past all the weird nonsensical things he’d overheard.

 

Castor hadn’t had a memory lapse since the previous day. And he was grateful, especially since he was unable to record and listen simultaneously. After he’d reviewed the last bit of white noise he’d captured, he started a new recording.

 

It took such a long time for Castor to dilute the caffeine from all the coffee he’d drunk, but eventually he began to get sleepy. He crawled into bed and drifted away. When he saw his brother, alive and well, and reaching toward him, Castor finally felt like everything was going to be ok.

 

***

 

Dr. Shelly was still riddled with confusion, when the detective came by to drop off Castor’s phone. Though she was nodding her head as she took it from him, she wasn’t registering any of his words… she was still seeing the image of Castor’s empty, rumpled bed in her mind’s eye. The police hadn’t found a body in that bed, only what Castor had left behind: the tiny mic she’d recommended and his phone. No one who went anywhere willingly left their phone behind. You didn’t have to be Nancy Drew to know that. Dr. Shelly forced a smile as she shut the door behind the retreating officer.

 

It saddened her to no end that she had been the one to report Castor missing; that he had no friends or family who’d noticed he was gone. And now, after the police had taken their time coming up with nothing, they were finally letting her have her turn.

 

Dr. Shelly was no detective, but she knew that the longer a person was missing, the less likely it was that they would be found. That’s the only reason she opted to listen to the latest recordings on Castor’s phone first, despite her preference to listen to them in order.

 

She pressed play on the last file recorded. It took awhile to get to it, but Castor’s voice finally came through. And, as calmly as she’d ever heard him, he said, “Oh yes, Pollux, I’m so ready to come home.”

 

 

 

[Conclusion:]

 

Well, my friends, I hope you enjoyed my modern twist on the Castor and Pollux story. I actually didn’t have a clue in the world as to who these two were until I did a little Googling. Castor and Pollux are twin half brothers from Greek and Roman mythology. For our purposes, we’ll stick to the Greek version of the story.

 

While Castor and Pollux shared the same mother, they had different fathers. Castor’s father was the King of Sparta, which made him a mortal, but Pollux was a demigod whose father was Zeus himself. One day, when the twins were fighting side by side in battle, Castor was struck with a lethal blow. In order to save his brother, Pollux asked his father if he could share his immortality with Castor, which is how they both ended up transforming into the two brightest stars in the Gemini constellation we still see today, to live together eternally in the night sky.

 

Upon further research, I also discovered that Castor’s star is not just one star, but actually six stars in one. And that’s when I stopped researching and started writing.

 

There is much more to discover about Castor and Pollux’s story, should you want to pursue it further, but I just wanted to give you a glimpse into what stuck with me as I rewrote my own modern take on how the Gemini twins found each other in the sky.

 

So before we say goodbye, I’d like to send big virtual hugs over to Hannah, who was so kind as to share her art with us today, and who gave me the breadcrumbs to follow that eventually led me to writing this story. Unfortunately for you, both Castor and Pollux, the paintings, are both already sold, but there is plenty more cosmic eye candy available for your viewing and purchasing pleasure over @hannahandthecosmos on Instagram. So definitely check that out whenever you can.

 

Thanks so much for listening, my friends… I’ll catch ya on the next one.

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Art Ink – 19 – Dangerous to Love

 

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[Intro:]

 

Welcome back to a brand new episode of Art Ink, my friends.

 

As the girl who once slept through the storm that brought a 2-foot wide tree crashing onto my neighbor’s house, it’s hard to believe I’m now finding myself struggling to fall asleep some nights.

 

It may be my new recording schedule, I work from 8pm to 2am four nights a week to record audiobooks, because that’s the only time traffic dies down enough so as not to break me out of my flow every few minutes. There are benefits to this new schedule, though, like having the hours before it gets dark to focus on some of my other creative habits, like writing for this podcast.

 

As I write this it’s day 4 of a 100-day project I’ve started to get myself writing here and turn it into an everyday habit. Have you noticed that I’m nearly back on track with bi-weekly scheduling?!? Yup, this is the 3rd episode I’ve gotten to you on an actual schedule, and that makes me feel sooo accomplished.

 

Anyway, I was talking about my newfound sleep issues… which may have something to do with my weird schedule, but probably has more to do with all the fear and turmoil pulsing through the world. Despite consciously staying away from mass media and social media, after one too many devastating rabbit holes, and only leaving the house twice per month to go grocery shopping, I still can’t escape it. I feel it in the air like a sad second skin… and when I’m unfortunate enough to discover some bit of news accidentally that feeling becomes 100 times worse. I feel desperate and hopeless and like I can’t do a fucking thing in the world to help heal it.

 

On at least half a dozen occasions I’ve found myself unable to sleep for so many hours that I end up grabbing my phone to do something—anything other than lie there. One night I found myself on Etsy searching for a mask. Weeks before that I’d told myself I would not buy one, that this too would pass, but the construction mask I’d been using already had two knots holding the elastic together and the government mandates were not being lifted.

 

So I went to Etsy to find a mask that could express how I felt about wearing one, and I came across a mask that said “Free Hugs! Just kidding don’t touch me.”

 

In a flash that familiar sadness enveloped me and I imagined what I could do to spread more love and connection through the world. The idea to start a hugging booth came to mind, but the fearful track that path led down was struck down just as quickly when my imagination took me through what could happen to me if I’d actually done such a thing.

 

So my sleepless night, is your entertainment… at least it wasn’t all for nothing.

 

 

But before we dive into the story, let me give you a taste of the cover art. You might have already guessed that today’s artist is actually an Esty shop. Anna Wiseman didn’t design the mask that’s on today’s cover art, but she did license it for use in her UniQueen’s Shop on Etsy, where you’ll find hilarious designs on everything wearable from masks to underwear! Links, of course, in the shownotes.

 

[Art Description:]

 

The green mask that’s featured alongside today’s story has a cute little cartoony cactus on the left hand side. It’s wearing glasses, and has three little pink flowers that look like hearts on top of its head and both arms. It’s sticking out of a planter that’s pink with white polka-dots. The rest of the mask is covered with black text that says, “Free hugs! Just kidding, don’t touch me.” And the whole design is bordered with two frames layered over each other. A dark green, grassy-looking frame with white dots is beneath a brown, wooden-looking frame that rests tilted on top.

 

This is the story of the version of me that isn’t scared shitless to do what she feels is right… and hey, maybe in some other universe, this is a true story. But lucky for me, in this reality I’m just a scared nerd who creates characters to do what I’m not brave enough to.

 

I hope you enjoy this fictional short story I’ve titled, Dangerous to Love

 

[Story:]

 

Beth picked up the last of the broken egg shells that littered the grass surrounding their booth while Damien wiped down their hand-painted, “FREE HUGS” sign. This had become a daily chore for them in the weeks they’d set up the hugging booth on their front lawn. At least no one had TPed the large oak tree today… that had only happened once, though, and not surprisingly since toilet paper had become rarer than a feather on a fish lately.

 

Beth assumed two things about the TP incident: 1) whoever had done it must be stocking stacks of white towers throughout their home for their ass-wiping security and 2) this person was making a statement about how much they loathed the hugging booth.

 

Damien jumped to a blaring horn that sounded behind him. It was a guy in a black pick up truck who leaned on his horn for a good 6 seconds as he flew by. “Psychos!!!” he screamed out the window, “I hope you suffocate and die for what you’re doing!”

 

Neither of them acknowledged the man with more than a glance, but Beth could tell by Damien’s rigid stance and deep breathing that he was struggling to contain his anger.

 

“It’s never too early for the first hug of the day!” Beth said as she wrapped her arms around him, and he softened a bit in her embrace.

 

“Remind me again why we’re still doing this?” Damien muttered into her hair.

 

“Because love and connection is the cure,” Beth began, and then Damien droned in unison, “not fear and separation.”

 

“That’s right,” Beth said as she pulled back from him, placed a hand on his chest and smiled up into his amber eyes. She knew that Damien would rather be doing anything else right now. Though he agreed with her sentiments, he didn’t agree it was a smart idea to make themselves into a target this way. But he supported her regardless, even if it was the only option she gave him to help keep her “safe.” She hated that he was afraid for her, but she figured all the love he was giving out in hugs balanced it out.

 

Another car slowed on the busy street in front of them, but this one turned into their driveway. A woman with wild black curls bouncing around her head sprung out of the car: Lisa. Her arms were outstretched before she’d crossed half the distance to them. She wedged herself in between Damien and Beth and pulled them in close. “Group hug!” She yelled at the sky, then quieter, “God, I can’t tell ya how much I’ve needed this.”

 

“Glad we could help Leese,” Beth said as she pulled back from her friend. “I actually thought of you the other day, it’s been awhile, how’ve you been?”

 

“Eh, I’ve been better… just heading out on my bi-weekly trip to the grocery store, and honestly I’m probably gonna hit ya’ll up for another one on the way back home… the last time I went it was like the apocalypse up in there.”

 

Over Lisa’s shoulder a 40-something woman glared at them, holding her phone up to the window, shaking her head like she was looking at a giant rendering of her child’s failing report card as she slowly drove past in an old Mercedes station wagon.

 

Damien had moved to settle into his spot for the day, but he was still listening, “Well, we’ll be here all day,” he said and he fell into the canvas camping chair, his book already in hand. “How are Stan and the kids?”

 

Lisa harrumphed and crossed her arms, “Stan’s as neurotic as ever and the kids are stir-crazy. You’d think with all the extra hands on board my house would be spic and span, right? Hmph!” She rolled her eyes and shook her head. “My house is a disaster. But my garden is lookin’ better than ever… it’s the only place I can get away from them, so I take advantage of it—a lot.” Lisa paused for a moment as if she’d magically transported herself into that magical garden of solitude, then she seemed to snap out of it. “Speaking of Stan, he’d kill me if he knew what I was doing here… so I’d better get going. But I’ll be back for a quickie, you can count on it!” She gave Beth a devilish smile before she turned back toward her car.

 

Beth waved at her and then lowered herself down next to Damien in her own chair. She’d forgotten her own book inside, but the lukewarm cup of coffee on the table and the rustling leaves that glimmered in the early morning sun were enough to entertain her for now.

 

The traffic had picked up over the last few days, places were starting to reopen, people were going back to work… but from what she’d heard, things were far from settling back into normalcy. This was the new normal, she’d seen many a social media post claim, but Beth refused to accept that. She refused to accept that she’d never be able to smile at a stranger in the grocery store, or that she’d never be able to breathe freely, bare-faced, in public without feeling like a criminal, but it was when her friend, through a Zoom meeting said, “I wish I could give you a hug,” that really sent Beth spiraling into a black hole of despair.

 

“You can hug whoever you want!” Beth had wanted to scream, but she’d kept silent, because she knew that would do little to change her friend’s beliefs. But in that moment, the idea for the hugging booth had come to her, because she knew there had to be other people like her out there who were feeling the same way, but too afraid to admit it. And she’d found some of them in the time since she and Damien had opened the booth… but they’d also discovered just how deeply the panic inducing fear ran through their neighborhood.

 

Most people weren’t complete “Mask-holes” like the guy who’d driven by earlier, but the majority were unable to stop their feelings from seeping out of their expressions, especially from the comfort zone of their contained cars, when they thought no one was looking. So the shock, anger, disdain, and terror was clear to Beth, who couldn’t help but look. It was the darkest kind of people watching she’d ever done. And it felt vulnerable, because these passers-by were shooting eye daggers at her attempt to love and heal a world that so desperately needed healing.

 

Beth had her own fears, not of getting a novel virus that had a 97% chance of strengthening her immune system, not of breathing fresh air in a public location, and certainly not of touching another human being, even one who might be sick.

 

No, Beth feared something much bigger: losing her freedom.

 

And people were showing up in droves to give away their rights these days. All in the name of fear. All falling prey to information that is so obviously designed to manipulate us… but we’re so damned used to it by now, that it’s second nature to fear the “threat” of the day and give into the “solution” designed to sway us into the arms of complete control.

 

There wasn’t a vaccine yet, or so they claimed, but it was coming, and Beth was afraid of what was in it. The all-too-convenient solution that would be force-fed to the masses. She pictured the signs outside of shops, no shirt, no shoes, no mask, no entry… and she imagined “no vaccine” added to the rapidly growing list of “public safety” rules. She imagined a futuristic world that horrified her. A world where people had to choose between not being able to literally show their faces in public and having the freedom to determine what medications go into their bodies. A world where the masked and unmasked folks further separated the classes, where the poorer, essential workers had to spend a majority of their lives covered, while the richer, work from home, class of people were free to bare their faces.

 

No one who flew before 2001 would ever have consented to standing like a criminal in a radioactive chamber that scanned their entire body – literally bearing you naked in front of strangers. But scare people long enough, and they’ll do anything in the name of “safety.”

 

To Beth it was such an obvious cycle of scare, control, repeat. It was simply marketing on the grandest of scales… under the guise of public service.

 

Beth shook her head as if to clear her thoughts. No use running down her own fearful bunny pit. Worries were just prayers for things she didn’t want.

 

Gravel crunching in the driveway snapped her attention away from the empty bottom of her coffee mug and Beth looked up at an approaching man… and not just any man, but Stan, Lisa’s husband Stan.

 

“A hugging booth huh?” Beth couldn’t decipher his tone, it was a strange mix of disgust and surrender. His body language was contradictory too, his eyes were squinty, so Beth imagined a smile stretched across his face, but she couldn’t be sure what his lips were doing hidden beneath his mask. His hands were clenched and shaking, as if anger was violently struggling to escape from his fists.

 

“Stan?” Beth rose from her seat and walked towards him. “Everything ok Stan?”

 

Damien put his book down and looked on, but he didn’t get up. Beth could feel the tension in him coiled tight like a rattlesnake waiting for his enemy to step too far into his territory, but Stan stopped his approach well beyond the recommended 6-foot distance.

 

“I knew Lisa was up to something, all the time it takes her to go the store and get back.” Stan said.

 

“I’m not sure what you’re talking about, Stan,” Beth lied. Had he been following his wife? No, he would’ve been here much sooner if that were the case.

 

“I have it on video, Beth, so don’t you dare lie to me,” Stan said through gritted teeth. His hands seemed to quiver double time. Sweat beaded his forehead, and a large droplet slid down the side of his face and disappeared as it was absorbed by the fabric against his cheek.

 

“You have what on video?” Beth asked.

 

Without a word he finally unclenched one of his fists to pull his phone out of his pocket. His white-knuckled grip wrapped around it as he pointed the screen in Beth’s direction.

 

And there the three of them were, Beth, Damien, and Lisa wrapped up in a group hug.

 

“How could you put our family at risk like this, Beth? You know that Lucy has asthma. What the fuck is wrong with you? Haven’t you been watching the news? If anyone in my family gets sick, it’s on you!” He thrust his phone in her direction as if it were a quadruple thick extension of his own accusatory finger. Then he turned to stomp back to his car.

 

Beth said nothing… there were a number of things she wanted to say, but none of it would console Stan; given his current state, anything she said was likely to anger him further. So instead she took a deep breath and stood her ground, straightening her spine to make herself feel as tall and confident as she could, until he’d finally pulled out of the driveway and sped away.

 

Once he was gone, Beth raced over the table where she’d left her phone and immediately called her friend to warn her. It went directly to voicemail. “Lisa, Stan was just here, he somehow had video of you hugging us…” it was then that Beth had a sudden flashback of the woman who’d driven by earlier with her phone pressed against the glass, “he must have hired a PI or something to follow you. I don’t know for sure, Leese, but he was pissed, so please be careful. You’re welcome to stay here if you want to let him cool down or something. I’m so sorry. I love you. Be safe.” And then, reluctantly, Beth hung up.

 

Not feeling satisfied, Beth then texted Lisa too, just for another chance to get the message through.

 

“Don’t worry,” Damien was suddenly in front of her, stroking down her arms from shoulder to elbow with comforting hands, “she said she was going to come back here on her way home.”

 

“Oh, that’s right,” Beth stepped into Damien’s chest and relished in the comfort of his enveloping arms. “I forgot about that,” she murmured into his t-shirt, “but you’re right, she’s going to be fine.”

 

Stan had never hurt Lisa or the kids, as far as Beth knew anyway, but he had a scary temper that often resulted in broken glass and holes in walls.

 

A car door slammed and Beth, thankfully, was pulled from her darkening spiral of thoughts. A white-haired woman in a mask and gloves stood unmoving in front of her car. She looked straight to Beth, but made no attempt to walk towards her. There was fear in her eyes.

 

“Need a hug my friend?” Beth called to her.

 

“Yes, but…” the woman’s shaky voice trailed off, her eyes darting sideways, as if looking for the words in the air.

 

“I can put on my mask and gloves, if that would help you feel safer?”

 

The woman’s eyes seemed to warm up in response, and she quickly nodded.

 

“Sure, no problem,” Beth assured as she reached inside her jeans pockets to pull out gloves. The mask was already around her neck, as this seemed to be a common request, but Beth only raised it when asked. It was the shaky middle ground she stood on these days, like a wobbly, decrepit bridge she had to traverse to meet between the land of fear and separation and her island of love and connection.

 

Sometimes Beth even had gratitude for masks, in those brief moments she was able to let go of her own fears during her meditations. They were placebos… and everyone knew the placebo effect was a powerful one; maybe even powerful enough to keep up to 80% of the people who believed in them healthy and alive. She often wished she could share in those beliefs.

 

Once Beth had covered her face, the lady slowly began her approach.

 

“What’s your name?” Beth asked.

 

“Rose.”

 

“Well it’s so nice to meet you, Rose,” and Beth forced herself to smile more broadly than she normally would so that it shone through her eyes. Then she wrapped Rose up in a hug.

 

“I live alone,” Rose said, the tension seeming to drain out of her body in bursts as quivering erupted into escaped sobs. “These past few weeks have been very hard for me.”

 

“Oh Rose, I’m so sorry.” Beth said softly. “Well you’re not alone now. And you’re welcome to come back anytime.” She squeezed her new friend a bit more to prove it.

 

“Thank you so much dear… what you’re doing is commendable.”

 

“Anytime, really.” Beth said as Rose finally pulled back.

 

Beth returned to her chair. The sun had finally risen high enough to blanket it, and she basked in its warmth, pulling down her mask in order to feel the full effect upon her skin. She pointed her face directly into the light, enjoying the glowing orangey patterns that shone through her closed eyelids.

 

“I’m heading in for another cuppa joe,” Damien stood and collected Beth’s mug, “want some more?”

 

“Sure, I’ll take another cup, thanks.” With the sun blanketing her in the cool morning air, Beth was just comfy enough that she was likely to nod off if nothing else appeared sooner to occupy her attention. She forced her eyes open, squinting across the yard, and was surprised to see a woman’s silhouette cresting the small hill that led up into their front yard from the street.

 

There was a lot of traffic on this road, much of which was made up of tractor-trailers and construction vehicles, and the shoulders were narrow, even non-existent in some places. All in all, it was not the kind of road you saw many people strolling down. During all the weeks that Beth had been giving out hugs, she hadn’t seen one person show up on foot.

 

The woman had straight black hair that hung past her shoulders, she wore a summery white dress and ankle high combat boots, and though her face was flushed with heat, she was wearing an olive green coat that was about 3 sizes too big for her. And there was no way this woman was out for a leisurely walk, she was marching as if she were on a mission. She stomped right up to Beth, who was standing to greet her.

 

“Hello neighbor,” she said, and Beth could sense something was off in her tone. Despite the heaviness Beth felt in the pit of her stomach, when the lady spread her arms out for a hug Beth reciprocated without hesitation.

 

The woman grabbed her with only one arm and suddenly that heaviness in Beth’s gut sharpened to excruciating and she doubled over.

 

“Your death wish is granted, bitch,” the woman sneered as she pulled the bloody knife from Beth’s stomach.

 

Everything was red: the white sundress was splattered, Beth’s hands were drenched as she pulled them away from the warm wet wound in her gut… so much blood had already dripped to the ground, coating the grass as Beth fell down to it, seemingly in slow motion.

 

“Beth!” Damien’s frantic voice called out, but it was so far away, even though he was clutching her almost instantly. The pounding of steps beat down the road. Loud squealing screamed into Beth’s ears as Damien’s concerned features began to blur. And a final, heavy, thump was the last sound she heard before the world blacked out.

 

 

***

 

A rhythmic beeping roused Beth from sleep and she opened her eyes slowly, blinking to acclimate to the too bright light. She felt groggy and numb. As the unfamiliar ceiling tiles came into focus she tried to sit up and pain cut through the layer of fuzziness she was lying in. She let out a breath as she fell back down on the bed.

 

Suddenly Lisa was standing over her. “Don’t try to move Beth, you’ll hurt yourself. You’re going to be ok, but the doctors say you’ll need some time.”

 

“She stabbed me.” Beth whisper-rasped out in disbelief as her last memories flooded back to her.

 

“Yeah, well karma smacked her down pretty quickly.”

 

“What do you mean?”

 

“She ran right into traffic trying to get away… a truck hit her… she didn’t make it.”

 

A tear escaped the corner of Beth’s eye. Despite what the girl had done to her, she was saddened by that news. The girl was obviously unhinged, maybe mentally ill, maybe an addict… or maybe she’d simply snapped under the heaviness of the world. It was an all too common story lately. Regardless, the girl had needed help, not instant cosmic revenge. More tears flowed.

 

“You’re the only one I know who could feel pity for someone who just tried to murder you,” Lisa chastised, but her smile was warm as she wiped Beth’s tears away.

 

“Where’s Damien?”

 

“I made him go get food… he should be back any minute.”

 

“Hold long have I been here?”

 

“Only a couple of days, and I hate to be the one to tell you this, but you’re going to have to stay a bit longer.”

 

Beth let out a sigh as she resolved herself to her situation. Then her mind bounced back to the previous day’s events. “Are you ok? What happened with Stan?”

 

“Oh he’s pissed as can be… made me a quarantine room in the basement…” Lisa stopped herself from going on and forced a smile, “but don’t you worry about that right now. You worry your pretty little head with getting better, you hear?” Her second smile was genuine.

 

But Beth wasn’t going to let it go, “I saw a woman drive by earlier with her phone to the window. I think she was following you, recording you.”

 

It was Lisa’s turn to sigh. “I’m afraid not love, she was recording the hugging booth, not me, I just happened to be there, and Stan just happened to see it.”

 

“What? How?”

 

“That lady posted the video to social media… and it went viral… and not in a good way.” Lisa’s smile was slanted now. She hesitated before she said, “The cops suspect your attacker saw the video too and recognized your house.”

 

After a long pause, Lisa continued, “So I guess the world’s not ready for a hugging booth yet.”

 

“What?” Beth’s look was incredulous. “This just proves that we’re more in need of love than ever! Hurt people, hurt people Leese, you know that.”

 

“But you can’t possibly be thinking of continuing on after what happ—”

 

“You can bet your bootie I’m going to keep it up! I can’t give give up now. I won’t. As long as I’m still alive I’m going to choose love… and probably long after.”

 

 

 

 

 

[Conclusion:]

 

I hate to make excuses, my friends, but it’s so much easier to create a fearlessly loving character in fiction than it is to become her in real life; in this… surreal reality we now find ourselves in where holding someone is a crime and something to be looked down upon.

 

Much like Beth, I don’t fear getting a virus. My fears are far fucking worse than that.

 

I’m afraid for the mental health of everyone on this planet. Because I know that very fear and stress that we are all experiencing right now, is far more deadly than any dis-ease out there. And I know that the truth about all disease is that it starts inside of you, not outside.

 

I fear for all of the elderly who have no one to hug, and who are terrified of dying alone without a hand to hold much less a body to clutch. I’m afraid for the young children whose fragilely developing minds are being molded to fit into a world of separation. I’m scared for anyone out there feeling helplessly lonely in their isolation.

 

I fear the further separation of the classes; what I’ve come to refer to in my head as the masked and the mask-nots; the mask-nots being those of privilege, those who can afford to eat out, face bare, while they’re served by a masked staff, for example. And this is just one example of many I could give you in which the rules are so blatantly not applicable to certain people.

 

I’m afraid of a world where people of color don’t feel safe around the very people our tax dollars pay to supposedly keep us safe. And I fear a world in which peaceful protests for basic human rights can so easily transform into blood baths initiated by those in power.

 

And most of all, I’m afraid of how easily we have accepted all of the bullshit the mass media has fed us. Because together we are so much stronger than the elite few in power – but somehow those few have convinced us, the masses, to voluntarily give up being together until further notice.

 

No matter how hard I try to ignore it, I can’t. I can literally feel the heaviness of our collective fear, pain, suffering… sadness.

 

Please, I beg you, do not give up your right to love. It is, by far, your most powerful asset.

 

If you’re interested in how you can learn to heal yourself from the inside out, both mentally and physically, I highly recommend the breathing exercises and meditations taught on somabreath.com – as of this recording you can participate in a free Breath Masterclass every Sunday – and I’ll link to that for you in the show notes.

 

Thank you, as always, for listening my friends. If this episode spoke to you, please share it with a friend, that would mean the world to me, but more importantly it might mean the world to them to discover they are not alone and that they have the right to choose togetherness.

 

That’s all for today, I’ll catch you on the next episode, but until then stay happy and healthy my friends.

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Art Ink – 18 – Hold Me – Art & Prose by Kali Parsons

 

Links from the Show at a Glance:

 

Artist: Kali Parsons

Title of Art: Hold Me & Play With Me

Artist’s Website: kaliparsons.com

Instagram: @kaliparsonsart

Take a look at all of Kali’s available originals

 

If the originals have already sold before you can get to them, she’d be happy to sell you a print by request, just shoot her a message!

 

Artists Helping Artists – the podcast for artists that led me to Kali! (It’s on a break right now, but there are 8 years of archived episodes you can still dig into!)

 

Art Ink Submission Guidelines: rebekahnemethy.com/artinksubs

 

 

Art Ink Podcast Transcript:

 

[Intro:]

 

Welcome back to another episode of Art Ink! I’m so thrilled you’re joining us today.

 

If you listened to the last show, The Synchronicity of Hope, you may already be familiar with Kali Parsons’ work, but the truth is there’s a lot about Kali that I neglected to tell you. I guess that’s what happens when you’re too close to something or someone, because although I’ve never met Kali in person, and until last week I didn’t even know how to properly pronounce her name, I do consider Kali to be a dear friend.

 

I met her on Twitter several years ago and we quickly became retweeting buddies, always sharing each other’s work in our streams. And though we became friends on social media, it was because of a podcast called Artists Helping Artists that led me to Kali’s work in the first place. One of the hosts described this fascinating site called Daily Paintworks, where artists are encouraged to complete small paintings every day. Kali’s been painting for nearly a decade now, and for many of those years she did it without missing a single day! #artistgoals Am I right?!?

 

Her bright, colorful, playful style was what I was drawn to at first, but it was her writing that pulled me in completely. At the time she was the only other artist I could find that maintained a blog that complimented her work. The words she shared let me into her world, let me get to know her in a way that her paintings alone couldn’t do. Don’t get me wrong, her work is stunning, and I have one of her whimsical originals in my bedroom to prove it. But what I’m trying to hint at here is the fact that you could be the most talented artist in the world, but in my humble opinion, you have to share more than that to make a real connection with people. And there’s no better way to do that than by sharing a bit of your story.

 

Kali is authentic and raw in her writing, so I’m beyond grateful that she’s allowing me to share some of it with you today.

 

In addition to being a prolific artist, Kali is also a special education teacher. Through everything she shares about teaching, creating with, and connecting to these kids, it’s obvious that Kali loves what she does very much.

 

For those of you unable to look at the cover art, we’re featuring two of Kali’s paintings today, let me attempt to paint these pictures with words until you have a chance to check them out for yourself:

 

[Art Description:]

 

Both paintings are a whimsical combination of shapes, colors, and paint splatters. They both have a blend of orange and green background colors splashed with a bit of black and white, and they both feature abstractly shaped main subjects that remind me of toys and stuffed animals.

 

In the one titled Play With Me, I see the love child of E.T. and a frog, and maybe that robot from Short Circuit? Ya know, “number 5 is alive.” It resembles a toy, a thick-bodied chunky toy that tapers up towards a triangular head. Its body is white, with yellow and blue circles floating amongst thick rectangular brush strokes. Red squares of paint fill the big round frog-like eyes. On either side of its body, the froggy has big circles that seem to show motion, as if it is, in fact, a robot spinning its arms too fast to see.

 

The other painting, Hold Me, looks like a stuffed bear. Maybe a panda bear? Like our froggy friend, our panda bear friend also has a white base, with pink, black and white circles inside of circles for eyes. These pink bullseye-looking shapes appear on the bear’s paws and legs too, with some red and yellow ones thrown in for good measure. Yellow, blue and red squares sparsely decorate the bear’s body too.

 

In pure Kali style, the area surrounding both toys is filled with shapes and splatters that just scream fun!

 

In my eyes, this is a perfect example of how Kali uses her paintings to shine light into the world, despite the heaviness of what we’ve all been feeling lately.

 

Before we dig into Kali’s prose, I want to give you some context in case you’re listening from the future, we’re coming to you from the summer of 2020 amidst much chaos and uncertainty in a rapidly changing world.

 

Each of the following stories first appeared on Kali’s blog alongside her beautiful art.

 

 

[Story:]

 

July 9th – Play With Me

 

As an Early Childhood Special Education teacher, teaching children social skills, how to work, solve problems, and play together are among my primary and favorite objectives. We teach, and children learn, through play. This coming school year instead of teaching my three, four, and five year old students with disabilities how to play and socialize together I will be put in the position of teaching them how to stay apart…distanced. How harmful will it be to the children in our society to be taught to suffocate that internal urge to be with, beside, and among their peers? How harmful will it be to be taught that when they want to empathize with a friend who is sad or hurt that they must stay away? How harmful will it be to be taught that when they want to play that they must sit away from friends and only play with their own set of toys? In person teaching before we can safely be in close proximity has dangers far beyond contracting the virus.

 

July 13th – Hold Me

 

In my sixteen years of teaching I have never had a first day of school (or any day, really) when every student just walked right in, happy to say “good bye” to their parents, and smoothly joined their peers in learning and play. Very few of my students do this. Many of my students need (and deserve) to be hugged and held through this transition that is such a leap into the great unknown for them. I’ve hugged and held students at drop off for days, weeks, and sometimes months until they adjusted, hugging and holding three, four, and five year old children who do not fully comprehend this transition or just simply want their mom and dad. And while hugging one child others invariably come over to join the hug. I’ve had parents have to enter my classroom while still holding their children and in a tangle of arms, mine, the parent’s, and the child’s, I take over the comforting of these children as their parents make an exit and I give them a friendly look over their child’s shoulder or wave, reassuring them that their child will be OK. This is something I’ve embraced as part of my job.

This school year my students will be being dropped off with a shielded and masked teacher that they may or may not recognize (even though I will be doing a Zoom meetings with them before school starts showing myself putting all of my PPE on). They will have just been through whatever screening protocols the district decides upon and gone through some process of getting to my room. Being upset by this transition is to be expected and understandable. In the current crisis requiring distance, how can I comfort my students and keep them and myself safe. How can I lean in and be part of a tangle of arms? How can I reassure parents that it’s going to be OK?  It’s possible that some of my students may be able to wear a mask, but it will likely be beyond many of their comprehension, tolerance, and ability to do so for an entire school day.

So much to think about and this is just the first five or so minutes of each school day.

 

 

[Conclusion:]

 

I’m sure school is already back in session for many of you. Where I am in NY there are still a couple of weeks left before kids go back to school, and as someone who is only a parent to furry and feathered kids, I haven’t been informed on what new policies will be implemented this year in my area.

 

But I think that Kali brings up some valid concerns. Forced separation could be dangerous path to go down, especially for young children… and I hope every day that it’s only temporary.

 

Big virtual hugs to Kali for sharing her work with us today. You can discover more of Kali’s whimsical art at kaliparsons.com and please do go follow her on Instagram @kaliparsonsart.

 

Both paintings that are featured in the cover art of this episode are still for sale at the time of this recording. They’re 12×16 mixed media paintings on watercolor paper and you can bet your booty there will be a link in the show notes to where you can purchase those as well as all the other linkable things that were mentioned today.

 

And that’s a wrap, my friends, thank you all so much for listening. If you enjoyed this show be sure to subscribe so that you can hear me later. Buh bye now, buh bye!

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Art Ink – 17 – The Synchronicity of Hope

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Links from the Show at a Glance:

 

Artist: Kali Parsons

Title of Art: Hope

Artist’s Website: kaliparsons.com

Instagram: @kaliparsonsart

 

If you connected with this story in any way Michael & Susan would love to hear from you. They can be reached via e-mail at michaeldbreazeale@gmail.com

 

Art Ink Submission Guidelines: rebekahnemethy.com/artinksubs

 

 

 

Art Ink Podcast Transcript:

 

[Intro:]

 

Hey there my artsy fartsy, nerdy wordy friends. Sorrynotsorry, you know if you’re here you’re at least half of that description, if not the whole shebang! Own it already.

 

I would venture to accuse today’s artist of being both artsy fartsy AND nerdy wordy. Because Kali Parsons has been on my list of artists to feature here since day one of brainstorming Art Ink, well before even a second of audio was recorded. She was one of the few artists I followed who always wrote a tiny story to share along with her fun and whimsical art, and so if you’re an artist who wants to see great examples of how a splash of story can be used to compliment your art, I insist you check out her work at kaliparsons.com.

 

If you’re new to Art Ink, you should know that it’s Kali’s painting that’s gracing the cover of this episode. And it’s that very painting that inspired the beautiful story you’re about to hear. This is usually the part where I describe the featured artwork for listeners who are unable to look at their devices for whatever reason, but today we’re going to be doing things a bit differently. As Kali wrote to me, “Sometimes the art takes off and creates a story all on its own.” And this painting, named “Hope,” isn’t just the spark that instigated this episode, she’s also a character in the following true story.

 

 

I present to you The Synchronicity of Hope.

 

 

[Story:]

 

Susan & Michael on their Wedding Day in 1993

 

“Hope is the power of being cheerful in circumstances that we know to be desperate.” -GK Chesterton

 

Most 18-year-old kids get a tattoo to rebel against their parents, but not Sean. No, Sean’s 1st tattoo was an orange and purple, single-word prayer that his mom would survive what life had dealt her, and his dad not only went with him, but got his own, matching ink, the very same day.

 

“Hope,” the tattoos said. And that’s what Sean and his father, Michael, did. They hoped that Susan could beat the cancer she’d just been diagnosed with. Hodgkin’s Lymphoma was the 2nd critical diagnosis Susan had taken since becoming a wife and a mother, after a 17-year struggle with primary progressive MS, which is a type of MS that doesn’t remit or relapse. It came on fast and it’s progressively gotten worse over the years. Sean had only been a few months old when that news had come; he doesn’t remember the version of his mother who wasn’t reliant on a wheelchair.

 

Hope had already been a familiar mantra for their family for several years, had become one after they’d attended their first MS Awareness walk together. Susan’s first neurologist was convinced a cure for MS would be developed in our lifetimes, and that was the hope that she had clung to all those years… so you can imagine the devastation when yet another layer of health challenges began to manifest.

 

Susan

This new diagnosis was the catalyst for Sean and Michael to literally inject a healthy dose of hope into their skin. They chose orange ink to stand for MS Awareness; and the purple ink represented Hodgkin’s.

 

Shortly afterwards, their mantra started to expand into a wall in their home that was dedicated to hope-filled art and design.

 

Meanwhile… Michael’s childhood friend, Kali, had been following his updates on Facebook. They hadn’t been in touch through more than social media since their 7th grade band broke up, yet Kali was continuously moved by the strength she witnessed in Michael and Susan’s marriage. When the post that detailed this latest blow to their family’s struggle went live, Kali had just finished a painting that would be a perfect fit for them, and it just so happened to be called “Hope.” It was of a serene looking girl outlined in black with her eyes closed, and the word “hope” in one, thin, black line of script hovered above her head, the only pop of color on the black and white canvas was a blue heart that filled the girl’s entire chest.

 

So Kali had a print made and sent it to Michael. Soon afterwards, much too soon afterwards Kali recalled, she’d gotten a notification that the original painting had sold on her website, and it was Michael who had bought it! There was no way the print had had enough time to make it through the mail, but Kali couldn’t be sure until she asked him.

 

“Hey, my friend.” Kali sent to Michael via Facebook. “I just have to ask. Received a surprise package I sent you? Just curious if we have some synchronicity going. xo”

 

“No. When did you send it? Was it USPS? If you sent me a print of “Hope” that would be some kind of next level awesomeness going on. Did you?”

 

“That’s exactly what it was! I didn’t think it could’ve gotten to you yet. I love you and me!”

 

“Hang on a moment. I gotta bring Susan up to speed on this…. We are both a little teary-eyed right now. I saw that a few other people had shown interest and then I got pretty busy with work. But just like you, she’s been in my mind all this time. When I saw her again this morning, I didn’t think twice about placing the order. Susan said to tell you ‘thank you.’ So much love for you and so inspired by your beautiful soul.”

 

So I have to ask you, dear listeners… do you think it might be possible for art to be aware. That just maybe Kali’s painting had it’s own mission to fulfill… that’s it’s possible for “things” to have souls? That they have a kind of consciousness that sends subtle energies into the Universe? Am I losing you with my weirdoism? Well… then let’s get back to the story shall we?

 

Because “Hope,” the painting, made her way into Michael’s home, but though she served as a constant source of inspiration for him and his family, she was more therapy than cure.

 

The Hope Wall

The challenges are real and seemingly never ending, and though Michael knows his marriage is stronger than it’s ever been, he still misses the good old days, before MS, before cancer. When I asked him in an email what their biggest struggle was he replied openly and vulnerably:

 

“Our biggest struggle. Wow.” He wrote. “Strap in because this is a deep sharing. Physical love & intimacy. Susan was 26 when she was diagnosed and I was 29. Married for three years, new beautiful baby son, young & in love and totally hot for each other. Within two years, spasticity had completely changed her body geometry and bladder incontinence had forced us to get a urostomy.

 

Chemotherapies we tried to slow down the MS had led to early menopause and muscle contractures & spasticity has caused her arms to cross and they are now locked to her chest. None of this is very sexy or romantic. It’s been over a decade that Susan hasn’t been able to hug me or hold me.

 

I tell people that love is like a wheel with many spokes. Physical, sex, intimacy, companionship, friendship, community, happiness, joy, spirituality, mental, dialog, honesty, trust, confidence and action; to name a few. True love can handle the removal of several of these spokes and the wheel will continue to roll and do its job. It’s false love that falls apart when you remove just one or a few.

But, it’s been difficult to not have the physical aspect of our love and it’s a deep source of depression for me.”

 

But, alongside Michael and Susan’s greatest struggle, lies some of their most precious memories. The two that they shared with me in that same email, interestingly enough, also came about on the other side of cancer.

 

“We had limited options in treating her cancer.” Michael explained. “No radiation therapy and only two of the four drugs on the second choice for chemotherapies. Susan did initially respond well to the chemo, but then it stalled. We switched to immunotherapy which actually put her into remission. But, the lymph nodes became active again within six months. This was grim. We had the conversation about how long we might be able to keep the cancer from ending her life and “salvage” therapies. They really need to come up with a better term than that.

 

A few months later we were at the opening night of the Orange County Fair. It’s a tradition for us to go to the opening night and to share a funnel cake just before we leave. We were sharing our desert and Susan asked me what I thought about renewing our vows on our anniversary. I pondered this for a moment and asked her, “Did you just propose to me over funnel cake at a county fair?” Which I joked was the most white trash thing I could think of. Then of course tearfully, I said yes. That part is my fondest memory of our love story. Susan’s is the actual vow renewal…”

 

[Vow Renewal Ceremony]

 

“Dearest family and friends, we are here today to celebrate the story of two hearts named Michael and Susan. Let me tell you how the story goes.

 

Once upon a time, a dedicated young Marine walked into a hotel lobby where a spirited young lady worked behind the counter. Through the trickery of his cohorts, the young Marine soon found himself riding beside the young lady in a snazzy white convertible. The young Marine did not realize he was about to be taken on the ride of a lifetime! Neither realized they had just met their soulmate.

 

As these two beautiful hearts became entwined, a promise to love and cherish forever was the natural next step. They were married September 25th 1993. Twenty-two years ago yesterday. That year, a gallon of gas cost $1.11 and a movie ticket was $4.14. It was the year Beanie Babies were introduced. And let’s not forget Milli Vanilli returned their Grammy. Girl, you know it’s true!

 

Soon after and with plenty of K-I-S-S-I-N-G, the two hearts became further and inextricably entwined. Much like two trees planted next to each other decades ago.

 

Rings are often exchanged at weddings as a symbol of eternal love. Love is the state in which your partner’s happiness comes above all else. The circle of the ring represents wholeness and perfection, with no beginning and no end. It wraps the finger of the loved one with the constant reminder of love, devotion, and respect. So today, I wrap these two hearts in the circle of this sash which represents their joint, steadfast recommitment to the ties which bind them together.

 

Michael and Susan, today, with the love and support of your friends and family, you honor each other as beloveds and partners in marriage.

 

Michael, would you please share your thoughts and promises with Susan?

 

[Michael’s Vows]

 

‘My dearest Susan, as we are here together today, I think back to all the wonderful memories we have shared. There really is no greater feeling than to have your best friend by your side every day. Twenty-two years ago, I promised to love you, no matter what else happened. And though we have had our struggles, that love has been strong enough to persevere through them all.

 

You have been confident, caring, nurturing, optimistic and supportive; even when the bounds of sickness and health have been tested to their limits. You are my best friend and lover, my partner, my shoulder to cry on and the arms that I cannot imagine being without. I have always loved you. I still love you. I love you as much now as I did twenty-two years ago. And I know that at some time in the future, when we meet again, on beach in the warm sun, destined to be together, that I will love you then.

 

Today I pledge to be by your side, to be your strength when you are weak, to never leave you, to be understanding and to be the husband you deserve. I love you.’

 

Susan, would you please share your thoughts and promises with Michael?

 

[Susan’s Vows]

 

‘Michael,

 

I’ve had a difficult time trying to find the perfect words to tell you just how much you mean to me and how much love I have for you. None the less I’m going to try…

 

The night we met, I asked who wanted to ride with me and your hand went up and you said I will. I had no idea that we would still be on that ride 23 years later and that hand would hold mine as we made our way through all that life had in store for us.

 

For better or worse, in sickness and health, for richer or poorer. We have been tested by all the original vows we made. Together we have, not only survived, but triumphed.

 

Michael, you are my strength. Not only physically but more importantly, emotionally. You make me laugh. You drive me crazy. You frustrate me. You make me proud. And you make me love you more every day.

 

Today, I am reaffirming my commitment to you and our life together. I promise to be your friend and confidante, your sounding board, and your safe place. I will continue to look towards our future with optimism and excitement.

 

I love you, Michael.’

 

 

As you continue on your journey together, I encourage you to remember that as tides ebb and flow, so too do the fortunes of life. Footprints in the sand are washed away. Driftwood moves on its endless quest for a peaceful harbor. Only a deep and abiding love can withstand the tides of change in two lives.

 

May you continue to be sensitive to each other’s needs. Be open and understanding with each other. Share your thoughts and feelings out loud in the safe harbor of your relationship. Continue to bring out the best in other.

 

By the power invested in me, I now pronounce you Spaghetti and Meatballs! Michael, you may kiss your bride.

 

Friends, family, I now present to you, for the first time ever, Mr. and Mrs. Breazeale version 2.0!”

 

And yes, in case you’re wondering, their officiant was ordained by the Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster, and she did that specifically for this occasion. It made sense considering the Breazeale’s aren’t unified in their religious beliefs.

 

“Our family is kind of like a joke.” Michael wrote in another email. “You know, “an Agnostic, a Buddhist and a Christian walk into a bar.” He was writing to answer my final question to him about what Hope means to them. And, just like a prayer, the definition of Hope is shaped by its beholder.

 

“I like what Desmond Tutu has to say about Hope. ‘I’m not an optimist because that in a sense is something that depends on feeling. More than the actual reality. We feel optimistic, or we feel pessimistic. Now hope is different, in that it is based not on the ephemarality of feelings. But on the firm ground of conviction. I believe with a steadfast faith that there can never be a situation that is utterly, totally hopeless. Hope is deeper and very close to unshakeable. It’s in the pit of your tummy.’

 

We both agree that Hope is a dynamic feeling and that it changes over time.

 

For Susan, initially that Hope was mostly defined around her MS. Her first neurologist told her that within his career “…there would be a cure for MS.” Three neurologists later there still isn’t a cure. But in the words of Archbishop Tutu she believes with a steadfast faith that her situation is not totally hopeless. When she was diagnosed with lymphoma, that Hope changed to something maybe a little more desperate. The Hope that the cancer could be cured and not end her life. The Hope that Sean and I would be able to cope with losing her, if that were to happen. The last 1.5 years have been a test for me. Anxiety and depression led me down a path of alcohol addiction. I’m in recovery and we are strong. But, some of those Hopes are now about being successful in recovery and continuing to experience joy in our lives.

 

My Hopes mirror my Buddhist philosophy. I constantly meditate about being able to choose the right paths, to help reduce her suffering to as little as possible. To choose the paths that will give her love and joy. I’m definitely a believer in reincarnation. I know with that same steadfast Hope that in the future, Susan and I will meet again. Somewhere on a beach, in the warm sun and we will know that we will have both found something special. That Hope and her Love gives me strength to continue living our love story.”

 

 

[Conclusion:]

 

When Kali wrote to me about the synchronicity she’d experienced with “Hope” she concluded her email with some credits, “I thank my art, I thank our open spirits, I thank [Michael’s] beautiful wife [Susan], and I must thank Facebook … through these four a space was created in the Universe for our friendship to bloom and magic to happen.”

 

And we also would like to thank Michael and Susan for being so open to sharing their personal journey with us today. Your story has both humbled and inspired us. Last but not least, we thank Kali, for sharing her beautiful work with us here and, of course, for connecting all the dots that led to this show.

 

Be sure to visit Kali at kaliparsons.com and @kaliparsonsart on Instagram. Links to those places can be found in the show notes, along with a photo of the painting that inspired today’s episode. Sadly, not all podcast apps show the featured artwork the same way, but there’s always a link to where you can see the art included in those show notes.

 

You’ll also be able to find additional photos Michael sent me in the show notes, including the ‘Hope’ wall, so be sure to dig into that too, when you’re able.

 

If you connected with this story in any way Michael & Susan would love to hear from you. They can be reached via e-mail at michaeldbreazeale@gmail.com

 

That’s all we have for you today, thank you all so much for listening. Check back in couple of weeks and you’ll be able to hear me later. TTFN my friends.

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Art Ink – 15 – Disconnected Part 1 – A Novella Inspired by Sean Howard’s Photography

Links from the Show at a Glance:

 

Artist: Sean Howard

Title of Art: Disconnected

Artist’s Website: seanhoward.ca

Instagram: @passitalong

 

Discover audio fiction podcasts on Sean’s network: fableandfolly.com

Sean Howard’s Levitation photographs

Art Ink Submission Guidelines: rebekahnemethy.com/artinksubs

 

Art Ink Podcast Transcript:

 

[Intro:]

Hello again, my friends! It’s been awhile since I’ve last spoken to you, and I hope you didn’t think I’d gone and pod-faded on you!

Believe it or not, I haven’t taken any breaks from this show. I’ve written at least a little bit, almost daily since the last episode came out. In my head, I was sure I was writing a short story, but it didn’t want to end, I just kept writing and writing, and watching the word count grow and grow.

One day I impulsively took a break to Google the definition of a short story, because I wasn’t so sure that this writing still fit into that category anymore. By the time I’d done the search it was already well over 10,000 words, which falls into the realm of a novelette. Anyone else out there new to this literary term? Apparently that is what you call a story that’s too long to be a short story but too short to be considered a novella.

I got excited at that point because I was sure that I was almost done, and as my creativity accountability partner Amy will attest, week after week it was my goal to finish this story. I was convinced that by the time I was done writing I’d get to introduce you to my finished novelette. Yet here I am, another 10,000+ words later, and I’m quite sure this story is destined to be a full-length novel… eventually anyway. For now, I’m calling it a novella and I’m recording it for you, because you’ve waited long enough!

Today’s artist is who I’m going to blame for all of this, Sean Howard, it’s totally all your fault for creating something that inspired me so much! I was instantly triggered when I saw your work, and it sent me down a rabbit hole that was hard for me to escape.

Sean Howard is all of the things! He’s a talented speaker, podcaster, writer, brand marketer, and he’s the co-founder of Fable and Folly, a network of kick ass audio fiction podcasts, some of which he’s acted in and produced. Which is awesome for you, my listeners, because while you’re waiting around for me to put out an episode, you could be discovering a world of new podcasts over at fableandfolly.com!

As if all that talent isn’t enough to squeeze into one human, Sean is also an amazing photographer. There’s something about his Levitation series of photographs that haunt me, in a good way, and I have to say it was not easy to select just one of these photos to write about. The saying a photo is worth a thousand words doesn’t do Sean’s art any justice… and, as I’ve already shared with you, it’s provided me with thousands and thousands of words.

When you get a second, my friends, make sure you take a look at the cover art for this episode to see the haunting photograph that Sean created. For those of you who can’t look just yet, let me attempt to paint the picture with words.

 

[Art Description:]

A girl in a spaghetti-strap, teal dress hugs her knees to her chest in front of a brown brick wall. She faces left, and we see a profile of her, eyes closed tight, pink and red highlighted dreadlocks pointing wildly in every direction.

Floating around the girl, surrounding her at shoulder height, are five floating devices: a tablet and several smart phones. Sean titled this piece Disconnected, and I could think of no better title for the story that his creation helped bring to life.

Enjoy…

 

[Story:]

Jennifer was hearing phantom ring tones. Despite the fact that she’d intentionally left her phone at home, her arm still instinctively reached out at least halfway to the empty dashboard mount before she realized there was no phone to be heard.

This was the third time she’d reached out to a non-existent phone. It was as if the fucking thing was a part of her body recently amputated.

It’s not that Jennifer didn’t want to bring her phone with her, but it’d be immediately confiscated as soon as she arrived at the center anyway, and so she’d figured it’d be better to leave it home; she didn’t want to worry about strangers invading her privacy… not that she had anything to hide.

There it was again; the distinct sound of her Instagram notification. Jennifer wondered if she was telepathically connected to the damned thing, as her arm automatically rose once again. She jerked it back toward her body, and huffed. If her other hand weren’t already occupied on the wheel she would’ve smacked herself.

Wouldn’t that be ironic, thought Jennifer, if I caused another accident distracted by a phantom phone? At least this time there’d be no evidence to incriminate her. She winced as the memory flashed through her mind, placed both hands firmly on the wheel, and squeezed until her knuckles were white and her concentration was on the road.

She panicked a bit when she saw the sign for exit 34; had she passed her exit?!

She glanced down at her odometer and sighed with relief as she remembered that A: she still had 30 miles to go and B: the exit numbers were counting down, not up.

Jennifer had known that driving to an unknown area without a GPS to guide her would be a challenge, but she’d done it as a teenager, back in the MapQuest days, when she’d had to print out directions on paper. Directions that didn’t magically rearrange themselves if she drove off course, she reminded herself, and then winced as horns blared in her memory. She remembered crossing three lanes of traffic in order to avoid missing an exit on her road trip to Maryland more than a decade ago. Jennifer sighed and reminded herself to be careful and alert.

The absolute worst part of this trip, however, was the silence. Usually she had an audiobook or podcast running when she drove. Occasionally she’d put upbeat music on when she was feeling down; by the time she finished belting out a couple of songs, she always felt much better. Jennifer was sure she’d be giving herself some music therapy by now… she’d tried the radio, but there was nothing to sing along to, the crackling quality was lacking, and there were more commercials than songs.

Jennifer’s circular thoughts filled the silence instead: she was broke, she was now jobless, she’d just maxed out her credit cards on this mandatory detox, and she couldn’t start fixing any of those problems until a month from now. A month from now!!!

It wasn’t like she was addicted to heroin… no one would have to hold her dreads while she puked her way back to sobriety for fuck’s sake.

The Insta notification chimed in her mind again, and Jennifer was reaching out before she could stop herself. She sighed loudly, put her hand back on the wheel, and rolled her eyes at the fact that some unknown force was calling her bluff. Maybe I am addicted to my phone, she thought.

Still, that didn’t justify the $6,000 it cost to go through this program. $6,000 down the drain… down the future drain, Jennifer corrected herself, sighing.

Jennifer felt pretty proud when she pulled into the parking lot a couple of hours later. She hadn’t gotten lost at all. Though it’s hard to get lost when you’re in the middle of nowhere and the turn offs are sparse.

The place was huge, and very modern looking; quite the opposite of what Jennifer had imagined it would be. The entire front of the building was covered in mirrored glass. In its center rose a pyramid shaped peak that stretched well above the rest of the structure; this was covered in the only glass that wasn’t mirrored. It looked more like a shortened, more angular version of a NYC office building than a rehab center. But what did a digital detox building typically look like? Jennifer knew of no others to compare it to.

Stepping inside was like putting sunglasses on, it dimmed the outside sunshine, but not enough to make you feel like you were indoors. Faint, lyricless, music played in the background, along with what sounded like a babbling brook. Jennifer noticed a waterfall that was built into one of the walls to her left. Floor cushions that looked like low love seats and couches were scattered across the floor in front of it.

Aside from the glass, everything seemed to be made out of natural elements. The floor was made of some kind of polished stone, with glimmers of an almost holographic iridescence where the light caught it. Sculpture creatures made of dried out driftwood and metal were scattered about the lobby. A crane with it’s wings spread and a fish in its mouth here, a puppy posed in a play bow over there, and what looked like a koala bear climbing a bamboo stalk in one corner.

“Welcome,” said a voice from the wall opposite the waterfall. Jennifer turned to it.

“Hi, I’m a bit early- I was afraid I’d get lost without the GPS on my phone.”

“Oh that’s no problem, let’s get you settled into your room.”

Even though Jennifer had told her she’d left her phone at home, the girl asked to go through her bags, which felt a bit demeaning. But apparently, many guests tried to sneak in digital contraband: tablets, iPods, old smartphones people claimed were no longer connected and thought should be allowed. The website had been clear about what was and wasn’t allowed – basically anything with a screen was banned.

Satisfied that Jennifer hadn’t hidden an iPod in her underwear, the girl moved on. She handed her a thick information packet, told her that orientation would be at 6 in the Oak Room, and walked her to her room.

With four hours to kill before orientation, Jennifer dropped to the bed and started leafing through the papers. She grew bored about halfway through the second page and studied the room around her. $6,000 and there wasn’t even a TV in her room. How was she going to make it through a month without Netflix?

Jennifer glanced at the clock on her nightstand, saw that only 5 minutes had passed since she’d stepped into the room, let out a lengthy sigh, and threw herself face down into a pile of pillows.

What was she going to do for the next 3 hours and 55 minutes? The panic started to tighten her throat; what if there was an emergency and she needed to call a friend? Then she started to breathe deeply as she remembered that she’d been through this scenario before and had planned accordingly.

She opened her suitcase to find all of her solutions. On top of everything was a practically blank notebook, the first page filled with her go to contacts and their numbers… when was the last time she’d manually dialed a number?

One side of Jennifer’s suitcase was stuffed with clothing and toiletries, and the other half was packed with a pile of books and art supplies. Jennifer was a doer; doing nothing was the ultimate depressant for her – and so, in a way, her suitcase was filled with anti-depressants.

Jennifer pushed her art journal and pencils aside to reveal a pile of novels. She grabbed a Carol Goodman book, The Lake of Dead Languages, and settled into the love seat to read… she couldn’t remember the last time she’d sat down to read a physical book. She “read” books all the time, but audiobooks were her medium of choice – that way she could multitask, “reading” while she walked, cleaned, cooked, and even while she was doodling sometimes. When she was caught up with everything else.

It’d been at least a decade since she’d given her total and complete attention to a book. Pinching the thickness of the pages in both hands, Jennifer had a nostalgic sense of beginnings; just the sliver of the paperback cover and the first few pages pinched between her fingers… the excitement of so many pages ahead. She remembered that giddiness every time she’d gotten a new Goosebumps book as a child.

Jennifer got lost in the book… until a loud knock startled her back into reality.

The girl who’d checked her in was standing at the door with a serene smile. “They’re waiting for you downstairs,” she said, and on a quick glance over her shoulder, Jennifer saw that it was 6:15.

As she approached the Oak Room door it didn’t take her long to figure out the origin of it’s name. Through the massive, triangular-shaped glass wall that stretched up at least four stories was the leafy top of a giant oak tree awash in golden light. The tree had to be at least 100 years old, judging from the thick trunk. Walking into the large room was like stepping outside. There was even grass on the floor… er… ground.

Though the base of the pyramid shaped room was as big as a high school gym, for some reason all of the chairs and their mostly silent occupants were all squished together in the center of the room… aaaannnd it didn’t look like there were any empty seats left.

Jennifer stopped behind the last row of chairs and mouthed the word “sorry” to the woman facing the group, before she bared her teeth, raised her eyebrows, and winced. She crossed her legs and stood with her hands clasped in the front pocket of her hoodie, avoiding eye contact with several people who glanced back at her.

“Oh good, I didn’t want to start until everyone had arrived,” said the woman in a sickly happy high-pitched tone. She wore a form fitting teal tank top and black leggings on her petite frame, and her blonde hair was twisted into a high 2-tier bun. She waved her hand rapidly saying, “there’s an empty seat up here,” and then she pointed to the front row.

Ugh, that’ll teach me to be late, Jennifer thought as she sped to get out of the spotlight, but once she was sitting down, she was grateful to have the chair. No one likes being the odd one out.

The gratitude only lasted a minute though, because although the tiny teenage girl to her left had unnecessarily scooted over when Jennifer sat down, the man on her right hadn’t budged his man spread knee until she’d wedged her own leg between his and the seat. Even then, he’d only moved an inch, keeping his knee hovering over her personal chair space.

The girl crossed her closest leg over the other, covering the rip in her jeans with a manicured hand. The black nail polish was in stark contrast to her pale skin, and the fine sprinkling of silver glitter in it did little to lessen it.

Jennifer scooted over a bit towards her, but was unable to escape the manspreader’s hovering knee.

“Ok, welcome, for those of you who don’t know,” she looked at Jennifer, “I’m Chris, and this is orientation, but it will also double as our first meditation session, so don’t anyone disappear.” she laughed at herself.

You’d actually have to disappear to escape this room without notice, Jennifer thought, as it was at least a 30-foot trek back to the door. Jennifer hadn’t seen another exit, but she hadn’t had enough time to gawk yet. She wanted to ogle the sunset lit view out the full glass wall she’d only had a chance to glance at upon entry, or up at the strange pyramid peaked ceiling, but there’d be no unrude way to look around this close to Chris… stupid front row seat. Another reason Jennifer liked to arrive to things like this early.

“I know that some of you are here of your own free will, but most of you have been given a court order for one reason or another, and to you I say don’t underestimate the power of your addiction. Yes, you are here to be rehabilitated… digital habits are just as toxic as chemical addictions. And for that reason we take our jobs here very seriously…”

Jennifer tuned Chris out as she squeaked on about rules and consequences… and then suddenly everyone was getting up and moving their chairs. She followed the manspreader’s lead, trailing behind him with her own chair. Everyone put their folded chairs into a number of wooden chests up against the far wall. Then they turned to either side to pull rolled yoga mats from matching wooden cubbies.

She picked a purple one and hustled to find a clear spot at the back of the room. As Jennifer walked through the crowd she noticed that nearly everyone here was a kid. Some might be in their 20s, but most looked they were still in high school. Aside from Chris, Jennifer guessed she was the oldest one here. Apparently 36 was a bit old to have a digital addiction.

Luckily, Jennifer was still flexible enough to cross her legs, unlike the manspreader who was struggling on his mat in front of her as she settled down. He managed to cross his ankles, but his knees wouldn’t go down further than chest level. As he continued to fight with his knees, pushing them down, only to have them bounce back up again, Jennifer felt a giggle rising up in her throat and attempted to stop it. She pressed her lips together and clamped a hand over her face, but this only forced the giggle through her nose AND through her lips in what, all together, ended up sounding like a squeaky face fart.

Jennifer suddenly felt eyes on her, and she let her face go lax and casually glanced around the room. Well if anyone was looking at her, they weren’t now; so she examined the young people, mostly girls – she noticed, around her, feeling proud that she could still twist herself into such a position.

“Make yourself comfortable and close your eyes,” Chris started, and Jennifer did so as a soothing chime resonated for several long seconds.

There was shuffling in front of her and Jennifer opened one eye to see that the manspreader had risen and was making his way to the wall, presumably to find a comfortable position on no less than three chairs. He turned around to face the room and looked directly at her as he unfolded, and then lowered himself onto a chair.

Jennifer closed her eye quickly, feeling the heat rise up into her cheeks. He’d definitely caught her staring. And she was probably glaring at him too, unintentionally, of course. She had one of those faces – what had her friend called it? Something bitch face… oh yeah, resting bitch face. She could only imagine what resting bitch face looked like with a one-eyed glare. Probably not very friendly.

Chris’s words brought her back to the present. “Focus on your breath. Pay attention to how your body feels as you breathe in… and out.”

Am I breathing normally? Jennifer wondered. She thought she noticed her heart rate going down as she slowed her breaths.

“It’s completely normal to have thoughts enter into our meditation, hear them and let them go… observe your thoughts, and as soon as you recognize them, remind yourself to come back to your breathing, focus on your inhale… and follow it through your body as you exhale… and repeat.”

Chris was silent for a few seconds.

Jennifer exhaled and wondered how long this meditation was going to last. She should definitely post an Instagram photo of this; no one would ever believe she’d sat still for longer than 5 minutes. How long had it been anyway? She should ask once they were finished so that she could have an accurate number to add to her caption… and then Jennifer realized an Instagram photo was not going to happen. She mentally smacked her palm against her forehead.

“Let your thoughts move on,” Chris suddenly reminded her, “and come back to your breath.”

Okay… Jennifer thought, breathe in, breath out… oh my god, my foot is totally asleep. How much longer are we going to sit here? She opened an eye again and glanced around without moving her head. No one else seemed uncomfortable, and she didn’t want to disrupt the silence by shuffling around.

She switched eyes and looked towards the wall. The manspreader wasn’t even trying. He was slouched against the wall, one hand on his crotch, knees spread to the max, and when her eyes finally traveled up his body, she saw that his eyes were open, a bored expression on his face. He was looking at Chris, whose own eyes were closed as she continued to breathe deeply.

Jennifer glanced back at the manspreader, but this time he was aiming his intense gaze directly at her. She automatically snapped her eye shut and winced; she’d been caught staring at him twice now. Oh. My. God. Stop looking at this guy. He probably thinks I’m a creepy cougar, Jennifer thought, but she quickly corrected herself. I’m too young to be a cougar.

“Now we’re going to do something that may be a bit uncomfortable,” Chris said, and there was a mysterious edge to her voice. “Think of an embarrassing moment… something from your childhood maybe… something that not many people in your life now would know about.”

Jennifer was immediately transported to a college classroom. She’d gotten high, maybe a little higher than she should’ve gotten, right before class. Usually it was the audience type of learning experience versus the participation kind… Jennifer took care to categorize her classes this way to make sure she didn’t get caught in a weed driven social anxiety attack, but Professor Brinkley must’ve been experimenting that day. He’d decided to have his students take turns reading aloud… only one paragraph at a time, but the text was dense with unfamiliar four and five syllable words that Jennifer had no idea how to pronounce.

As the student in front of her started to read, Jennifer quickly read ahead, trying to prepare herself for her turn. She’d internally sighed with relief when she was finished, but then the girl in front of her had gone on… she was reading the paragraph Jennifer was supposed to read. She had become frozen with shock, and suddenly it was her turn, and she was totally unprepared.

Jennifer had stumbled through the text, gripping both sides of the desk to stop her hands from shaking. She’d sounded out at least three unknown words as if she were a second-grader, then she proceeded to butcher even the parts of the English language she did know.

Jennifer couldn’t look up in the silence that followed. No one laughed or snickered… it was an uncomfortable, pitying silence, which was confirmed with the professor’s elongated, “ooookaaay.”

The heartbeat in her ears hadn’t relented its pounding until three students later.

She’d often wondered what her classmates had thought of her that day. Jennifer would be perfectly fine with the truth: she’d gotten stupidly high… but she feared it was more likely that they thought stupid was her default setting.

“Now, it’s time to forgive yourself.” Chris’s voice intruded into the memory, “step into your past as the present version of you, older, more experienced, and bring love to the child you used to be. Give that child a hug, tell them it’s ok, tell them you forgive them, tell them that you love them. See the expression on their face when they experience this forgiveness and love. Ok, it’s now time to come back to the present moment.”

Jennifer opened her eyes slowly, and unfolded her twisted legs even slower. She’d definitely need to sit there for a few minutes to let the blood flow reach her foot; to make sure the pins and needles had run their course before she tried to walk. Jennifer pretended to stretch as everyone around her began to rise, and intentionally avoided looking up, terrified of somehow being pulled back into the manspreader’s gaze again.

Chris directed everyone to the dining hall and a soft chatter filled the air and faded away behind Jennifer as the crowd left the room.

“Not as easy as it looks, is it?” A deep voice asked, and a hand reached down to her. It was the manspreader standing over her. Looking past his hand into his face, Jennifer noticed that, though he was dressed like a teenager in a white hoodie and jeans, he was a lot older than she’d realized. Maybe even older than her.

Jennifer took his hand and let him pull her to her feet, which still felt a little tingly. He held onto her hand at the end of the gesture combining it into a handshake and said, “Matt.”

“Jennifer,” she said with a tight smile.

“You a workaholic?” he asked.

“No… I don’t think so…” Jennifer said, “why?”

“Oh… I just assumed… wait. You’re not here on a court order are you?” He asked and amusement shone in his hazel gaze.

“Yeah, actually, I am.” Jennifer said shortly. And with that she turned her back to him and marched toward the dining hall.

When she smelled the tomato-sauce-drenched main course, she grabbed an apple and a banana and made her way back to the double doors, intending to eat and read back in her room. But manspreader, Matt, stepped in front of her, blocking the way.

“You want to join me for dinner?” he asked, an empty tray in one hand.

“I was actually going to go eat in my room,” Jennifer said, a hint of irritation in her voice. What was with this guy? Her earlier embarrassment around him was quickly being replaced with annoyance at his boldness.

“Ok, well, I just wanted to apologize if I offended you before… it wasn’t intentional.”

“Ok.” She said. But he was still blocking her way out. Should she walk around him?

“Sorry.” He said.

“It’s fine.” But it wasn’t fine, Jennifer thought, it was none of his business.

And then he finally stepped away, saying, “Ok, I guess I’ll see you later.”

But Jennifer didn’t answer him as she hurried out the door and back to the comfort of her room.

She read her book until her eyes were so heavy she got stuck in a loop, reading the same paragraph again and again in between bouts of wakefulness, until she finally gave up.

The next thing she knew she was sitting straight up in bed, heart thudding, her skin tacky with sweat. She’d had a nightmare, she realized… thank god it was just that. Jennifer had woken up just before she’d hit someone, someone else, she thought as she recalled the dream woman’s fear-twisted face through the rain-smeared windshield. She’d had a yellow umbrella and it had cast her skin in a shade of jaundice.

Jennifer didn’t see it happen, but the sense of speed and lack of control as she’d dropped the phone, gripped the wheel and punched the brake pedal to the floor… it made her almost certain that the hit had to be fatal.

Was this the Universe trying to warn her? Trying to make her take her “crime” more seriously? Not cool, Universe, not cool.

She let herself fall back into the pillow, which was now damp and cold and not at all comforting. The EHH, EHH, EHH of the alarm clock jarred her upright again, and once she could finally figure out how to shut the archaic thing up, Jennifer let out a long sigh. She thought of how, if she’d had her phone, she’d be woken up gently as a harp played, slowly increasing in volume as it went. She groaned as she got up; there wasn’t much time to get ready before her 1-on-1 with Chris.

Jennifer brushed her teeth furiously with one hand as she pulled socks off with the other, hopping a couple times to keep from losing her balance. The contrast of blonde on black automatically drew her gaze away from her brown eyes, and she sighed through her nose so as to avoid spewing toothpaste everywhere. She couldn’t even afford to buy a cheap bottle of dye, not unless she wanted to add to her already Everest high mountain of debt, and the pink had long since faded from her short dreadlocks.

Jennifer hadn’t taken a single selfie since… she’d thought about going with black and white photos, tried every filter there was, but nothing looked right alongside the colorful art in her feed; too off-brand.

Luckily, she didn’t have the time to dwell on it. She rinsed, spit, turned away from her reflection and its reminder of all her problems, and got in the shower.

Fifteen minutes later, Jennifer passed into Chris’s office with her clothes clinging to her still damp skin, but at least she wasn’t late, she affirmed to herself as she glanced at the clock. It was 7:29, one minute to spare.

Office was a formal word for the comfy, brightly colored room. There was no desk, no file cabinets, and it was as if a box of markers had thrown up on the walls. The glossy white walls were floor to ceiling dry erase boards, and they were almost completely covered in writing and drawings. Here and there were rectangular patches of black chalkboard paint, which were equally scribbled upon in pale pastels. An L-shaped couch, a love seat, and a few chairs were arranged in a circle that surrounded a bunch of beanbag chairs on the floor. The room looked more suited to a teenage hangout than an office. Jennifer took a seat on a vibrantly green, velvety soft sofa.

“How are you settling in Jennifer?” Chris asked from her seat on a hot pink chair; hers was equally velvety looking. Her hands were laid one atop the other in her lap.

“Well, my wake up wasn’t fun, but aside from that… fine.” Jennifer knew that no digital devices were allowed on the premises, but she’d thought for sure that an exception would be made for the people who ran this place. But even if not, shouldn’t Chris at least have a notebook, a folder to reference… something?

“Yes, you had quite the nightmare, didn’t you?”

“No,” Jennifer said, her gaze scanning above Chris’s head to a long, twisting, Chinese-style dragon drawn in red, “it wasn’t the nightmare I was talking about, it was the alarm cl—wait,” she interrupted herself, her eyes darting back to Chris, “How did you know about my nightmare? Are there hidden cameras in my room?”

“No, there are no cameras in your room,” said Chris, “along with being immoral, that would also be illegal.”

“Then… how did you know about my nightmare?”

“The same way I know about the manspreader.” Chris smiled broadly and raised her eyebrows expectantly.

“Who?” Jennifer began to mentally retrace the past 24 hours, but she couldn’t remember saying that aloud to anyone. Had she secretly been hypnotized during the meditation, caught muttering her inside jokes aloud?

“Hypnotism is something we can do here,” Chris responded, unprompted, “but I assure you, you have not been hypnotized.”

Chris paused for a moment, as if to let that sink in. Jennifer was stunned into silence.

“I hope you’ll forgive my intrusion,” Chris continued, “unfortunately, it’s the only way I’ve found to get through to most people… do you know why you’re here Jennifer?”

“Because it was this or lose my license.”

“Yes… that’s true. You’ve got three counts of texting and driving on your record… but I’m not asking you about your crime Jennifer, I’m asking if you know what you’ve come here to learn. Any idea?”

“How to promise I won’t do it again?… and mean it, since you apparently can read my mind.”

“Let’s go about this a different way. What have you experienced since you last had your phone?”

“I’ve felt… lost. Like something’s missing. Like I’m missing something.” Jennifer paused, but Chris nodded for her to continue. “I feel out of the loop. Disconnected.”

“Yes! You feel disconnected, and rightfully so. You know, smartphones have only been around for the past couple of decades, and in that time we’ve somehow conditioned ourselves to be completely reliant on them for our connection to everything.”

Jennifer couldn’t dispute that. The past day had been a challenge to say the least. She nodded.

Chris went on, “but what if I told you that you could be trained to connect to others, to this world, to this Universe, in ways that you could never imagine… in ways that would make your phone seem subpar?”

“What, you want to teach me how to read minds?” Jennifer asked doubtfully.

“You already know how to connect to others, you’ve had at least one big hit since you’ve been here.”

“What do you mean?”

“That wasn’t just a nightmare, Jennifer, it was a memory… someone else’s memory.”

Jennifer thought back to her dream. It was a bit fuzzier now, but she could still recall most of it: the phone in her hand, white screen blazing in the dimly lit interior, though the words she’d read were totally lost now, and the yellow-skinned woman with wide eyes. But wait… Jennifer went back to the phone in her hand… had it been her hand? Had it been her car? It was hard to tell. It’d been dark.

“Whose memory?”

“Well that wouldn’t be very fun, now would it?” Chris said with a smirk. “You’re here for a month, you’ll have plenty of time to figure it out.”

Jennifer headed to the dining hall after that. She walked through the food line in a daze, trying to remember the details of her nightmare. Could it really be a memory? Jennifer would’ve found that hard to believe before her strange encounter with Chris, but she also would’ve thrown mindreading into the same box; passing it off as just another sci-fi element, along with teleportation and time travel. There was no doubt, though. Unless Jennifer was truly losing it, there was no other explanation for Chris knowing about her dream… or the fact that she had internally nicknamed the manspreader.

Speak of the spreader himself, as Jennifer was exiting the line he was waving her over to his table. Her impulse was to pretend she hadn’t seen him and return to her room like she had last night, but she had so many questions about this place now, and maybe some of these other digi detoxees could answer them. At least this time he wasn’t alone, the ripped jeans girl who’d sat on the other side of her in the Oak room was at the table too.

Jennifer took a deep breath and headed toward them. “Hey,” she said with a forced smile she hoped didn’t look it. “Matt right?” she started, looking at the manspreader, but she didn’t wait for him to answer before she shifted her gaze to the girl, “I didn’t get your name.”

“Karen,” the girl said, extending her hand. Her long, almost black, hair was shiny, sleek, and straight. With her bangs, the way it hung was like a three-sided picture frame around her face, all hard edges and contrast.

“Jennifer.” She shook the girl’s hand over the table, and noticed that the black nail polish from yesterday had been replaced with fire engine red.

“We were just talking about Karen’s 1-on-1,” Matt said, “did you have yours yet?”

“Yeah, just before I came here,” Jennifer said, “wasn’t exactly what I’d expected.”

“Me neither, but the idea that we’ve somehow stumbled upon a school for psychic development makes it so much more interesting. Don’t you think?” Karen asked, but didn’t wait for an answer. “I mean if going through this detox is mandatory, we may as well get something useful out of it. I’m actually excited now.”

“I mean it’d be cool, I’m not debating that… but do you think it’s even possible?” Matt countered. “I’m not entirely convinced.”

“I wasn’t either, at first,” Karen said, “but Chris knew things… she knew things I’ve never told anyone.”

“Like what?” Matt asked, a smirk on his face.

“Chris knowing is bad enough, I’m sure as hell not telling you.” Karen said looking at him like she had a bad taste in her mouth. After a pause she started again, “But, I will say that I think that whole embarrassing moment thing she made us do during the meditation was a way for her to get material.”

“Material?” Jennifer said.

“Yeah, you know, to prove this shit to us.” Karen explained.

“Well that’s not gonna work on me,” Matt replied, leaning back and crossing his arms over his chest, “I couldn’t think of anything embarrassing. I was barely able to focus on meditating in the first place.”

“Well you’ll see,” Karen said assuredly, “when you go to your 1-on-1.”

Matt only shrugged and switched his gaze. “What about you, Jennifer?” he asked.

“I guess I’m still trying to absorb all of this.” She paused to eat a spoonful of bland oatmeal. She’d piled brown sugar on top and mixed it in, but barely tasted it. “My inner skeptic is still trying to convince me there’s a reasonable explanation for what just happened; but she’s having trouble finding one.”

“Yeah,” Matt agreed, “like maybe our friends and family are in on some elaborate practical joke?”

“But there’s no way,” Jennifer was shaking her head. “Chris was reading the thoughts in my head as I was thinking them.”

“Yeah, she did the same thing to me.” Karen said. “Look, I’m not saying I’m entirely convinced we’ll be able to do this mind reading thing anytime soon. But I have no doubt that Chris has some crazy skills… makes total sense now why we have to be here for so long… but yeah, I’m willing to give it a go. Think of what we could do.”

“Yeah…” Matt’s smirk returned, wider than ever, “Well I guess only time will tell.”

They were all quiet for awhile as they finished eating.

“Hey we still have an hour until the next group meeting,” Matt said. “Who’s up for a walk?”

“I’m down,” said Karen quickly, “the weather’s supposed to be gorgeous today.”

Matt and Karen both looked at Jennifer expectantly. “Ok, you’ve convinced me,” she said on a sigh.

“Well don’t let us twist your arm,” Matt said, but he smiled.

“No, I could use the fresh air, and who knows, this could be the last of the nice weather, we should definitely take advantage of it.”

***

Matt was much taller than Karen and Jennifer, and he stopped several times to let them catch up to him before he found their pace. It was still a bit chilly out, but the sun on their backs was comfortably warm, and grew warmer as it rose.

“So, Karen,” Matt began, “you said earlier that this is mandatory for you…” he glanced at her before continuing, “care to indulge our curiosity.”

Karen shrugged. “Sure, I’ve got nothing to hide. It’s kinda stupid actually. Long story short, I got my three strikes and here I am. But it’s impossible not to text and drive when most of your “driving,” she used air quotes, “is actually idling in dead stopped traffic, ya know? Plus, I can’t do my job without my phone, I’m an Uber driver… so in reality, I never actually texted anyone. My dash mount broke and I had an unlucky week with cops, what can I say? What about you?”

So apparently Karen was older than she looked too, because Jennifer was pretty sure you had to be at least 21 to be an Uber driver.

“I checked myself in voluntarily,” Matt said, “but not until after I had a wake up call.” He paused for two or three paces, then continued on a bit reluctantly. “I’m kind of a workaholic. I was driving out to dinner after a late night at work, it was raining, pouring actually, and I was waiting for an important email. My phone went off, and it was just so automatic the way I grabbed for it… anyway, I took one hand off the wheel at the same time I hit a stretch of deep water. I dropped the phone as soon as I started hydroplaning, but it happened so fast, and before I had both hands on the wheel again I’d already done a 180 and was flying off the road. The next thing I knew I’d slammed sideways into a tree.”

“Wow,” Jennifer stopped walking, “were you hurt?”

“Not at all, but I can’t stop myself from wondering what could’ve happened if there was another car nearby… what if I’d hurt someone else? Killed someone? And all because of a stupid email? I’d never be able to forgive myself.”

“Well, you didn’t,” Karen gave Matt a friendly pat on the back, “and you’re here to make sure it doesn’t happen again, right? So don’t worry about it.”

Matt nodded and they started walking again. The path they’d taken looped around a large pond, and they were nearly back to where they’d started again.

“I worry about the same thing,” Jennifer broke the silence. She hadn’t planned on airing out her own skid marks, but Matt’s unexpected vulnerability made Jennifer feel like she owed it to him to be honest herself. “Though… I have to admit I don’t think it has anything to do with needing to digitally detox.” Jennifer started, she was about to bring up the nightmare since that was the main instigator of her recent fears, but she quickly decided against it. If that nightmare was a memory like Chris said, it most likely belonged to someone here, and who was she to tell someone else’s story. Plus, it had an uncomfortable number of similarities to Matt’s story. Could that be a coincidence? Was her dream off? Was he hiding part of the story?

“I actually did hit someone.” Jennifer admitted, and Matt and Karen both stopped simultaneously to turn toward her. “He was fine,” she quickly continued, a bit defensively, “but the fact is, it would’ve happened whether I had my phone with me or not.” Jennifer could probably squeeze between the two of them and keep walking, and that was what she wanted to do most, but she also didn’t want it to look like she was hiding anything either, so she stopped too.

“I was pulling out of this gas station. It’s on a busy road, so you can’t make a left there, but there’s a yield sign to go right. Sometimes you get lucky and catch a gap in traffic when the light down the road changes, but most of the time you have to sit there and wait.” Jennifer paused here as if her audience needed time to paint the scene in their heads. “So I was waiting and waiting, and my phone went off; it was a text from my friend checking on my ETA, so I tapped the screen to read it. Then I told Siri to text her back that I was on my way. I looked to the left and saw there was finally a gap I could cut into, I hit the gas as the last car was passing in front of me, but as I turned my head to face forward there was something in front of me, and I slammed on my brakes to stop from hitting it. But it was too late. My car jerked forward a couple of feet and stopped, and suddenly there was a man in front of me sprawled in the road.

“I tried to help him, but he got up all on his own before I could make it to him. He was furious, waving his arms at me, screaming that he saw me looking down at my phone. He called the police. And sure enough, they believed him as soon as they saw the time on my last text matched the time he’d reported the accident. It didn’t help that I already had a couple of texting and driving tickets on my record.

“What pisses me off the most though is that I was trying to do better! I got one of those stupid mounts so I could be ‘hands free’ and I hadn’t typed out a single text since my last ticket. And I wasn’t even driving!!!” Jennifer took a moment to breathe away her fury.

“Plus,” she continued in a much calmer voice, “I’ve turned out of that parking lot so many times. I never look right. There’s not even a shoulder on that road. It’s not the kind of road you should be out taking a stroll on. So I’m sure I would’ve hit him anyway.”

Karen was suddenly laughing, “So,” she started, but she was cracking up and couldn’t spit out the words. “So,” she said again once she could get control over herself, “you mean to tell me that guy saw you NOT look at him and decided to walk in front of your car anyway?” Again, laughter burst out of her, and Matt and Jennifer couldn’t help but be infected by it, letting out a few of their own chuckles.

“Yeah,” Jennifer said starting to catch a bit of Karen’s contagious laughter, “probably not his brightest moment.”

“That guy wouldn’t last two seconds in the city.” Karen said with a shake of her head.

Matt was chuckling a bit now too, though Jennifer could tell he was trying not to. “We are such assholes for laughing about this.”

“Why?” Karen said, “It’s not like he died… of anything other than embarrassment, maybe.”

“Ya know, that’s probably so true,” Jennifer said, “I never said it at the time, but I thought he was totally overreacting. I mean, if he had the energy to jump up and wave his arms around at me the way he was…” Jennifer was laughing again. “I’ve seen toddlers with less energetic temper tantrums.”

The laughter and the rest of their walk wound down as the trio reached the end of the trail. The paved pathway spread out into a parking lot before them.

“Just in time,” Matt said, glancing at his watch, “we have 10 minutes until our next group meeting.”

“Perfect,” said Karen, “I’m gonna grab something from my car quick, and run it over to my room.” She veered to the left towards a bright red Mazda RX8 and opened the passenger side door.

Something about the car was familiar to Jennifer, but with the only eye-catching paint job in a lot full of neutral blacks, whites, and silvers, she assumed she must’ve noticed it when she pulled in yesterday.

“You can use that for Uber?” Matt asked. “I thought all of their cars needed to have four doors.”

“Well, technically it has four doors,” Karen said as she reached in behind the seat and pulled open a surprise back door. “But you’re right, this is my personal car, and not at all Uber-approved, which is good, because if anyone threw up in this car, I’d be pissed.” She grabbed a small storage container out of the back seat and gently bumped both doors closed with her hip.

As Karen got closer Jennifer recognized the case’s colorful contents. “That’s a lot of nail polish!”

“Yeah, well, we’ve got a lot of time to kill,” Karen shot back, glancing at Jennifer’s nails as she did, “oooooohhhwww, you’ve got some blank canvases for me.” She raised her eyebrows in question.

“If you really want to,” Jennifer agreed half-heartedly, “I mean, there’s not much there—”

“Oh please, help a girl out,” Karen pleaded, “I’m doing my own daily, and it doesn’t take up nearly as much time as I need it to.”

“Ok,” Jennifer chuckled. Internally she wondered how she was going to keep from poisoning herself the next time she unconsciously bit her nails.

“You think we scared the big guy off?” Karen asked, and Jennifer noticed that Matt had somehow gotten ahead of them. He was already pulling open the glass doors some 50 feet ahead of them.

“Maybe… but he doesn’t seem like the type to scare easily,” Jennifer replied.

“I’m sure I could fix that with one ride.” Karen winked.

“I hope you’re talking about a ride in your car.”

“Of course! What kind of girl do you think I am?” As Karen made her way across the wide open lobby toward her room, she giggled in a way that made Jennifer wonder.

A few minutes later they’d joined the rest of the group in the Oak Room and were once again preparing themselves for another guided meditation.

When Matt tried to slink back to his comfort zone against the wall, Chris followed him. She gently pulled him to his feet, lifted the chair he’d been sitting on, and folded it. She looked up at him, paused. Matt had a shit-eating grin on his face. They were too far away to hear, but in a flash Matt’s forehead furrowed in shocked confusion, holding his mouth open like the shit had fallen right out. Chris turned around, bringing the chair closer to the group. She had a serene smile on her lips, but her eyes wore a cockier expression, like they were screaming “HA! Gotcha!”

“Does anyone want to go get something warmer to wear?” she addressed the group as she pulled a sweatshirt on over her tank and returned to her mat. “Once the sun’s gone it’ll get pretty chilly in here.”

A few people looked upward to the endlessly blue sky that shone through the clear panes above, but nobody moved from their seats.

The pyramid shaped room was basically a green house and Jennifer was grateful for the toasty temperature. Although it was comfortable outside while Jennifer was walking, once she’d slowed down in the parking lot, any hint of a breeze had bit into her skin.

“Anyone?” Chris tried again, but still no one budged from their seats. “Ok, then let’s begin, shall we?” She gave her tiny bell a tap and a familiar chiming vibrated through the large space for several seconds.

Chris led the group to focus on their breathing as she did before, and after a few minutes of that she guided them into full relaxation. “Notice how the top of your head feels, relax your scalp. Feel any tension in your face… and let it go. Let the skin on your forehead go slack, relax your cheeks, your jaw…” and she went on to bring attention to every bit of Jennifer’s tense body. Odd how you didn’t even realize your jaw was clenched until someone told you to unclench it, Jennifer thought. By the time Chris had reached her toes, Jennifer was so relaxed she felt like her skin had melted off; but in a good way.

“Focus on the sounds seeping into your ears,” Chris said softly, “let the noise gradually get louder, until you start to recognize it…”

The orangey glow that’d shown through Jennifer’s closed eyelids gradually faded to black. At the same time the staticky sound of nothing grew louder until she knew what it was. Rain. Jennifer opened her eyes to confirm it. The blue above had been replaced by a dark gray and it was pouring.

Only Chris still had her eyes closed, everyone else was looking up in wonder. Jennifer hugged herself and rubbed her arms as the temperature quickly dropped.

Without opening her eyes, Chris said, “I warned you that it would get chilly.” Then, after a pause, “Well I guess we’re done meditating for now,” she said and finally opened her eyes to look at everyone in front of her.

The group broke for lunch and afterwards, Chris divided them up. Most everyone had taken the opportunity to bundle themselves up before returning to the chilly, gray Oak Room, but it turned out that only half of them would be needing the extra clothing.

As Chris directed them all to form two neat lines, Jennifer felt like she was back in elementary school about to march out to recess. She was at the back of the line, Karen stood in front of her, and Matt towered in the next spot. But that’s where the nostalgia ended, as Chris instructed the group to turn sideways to face the opposing line. There just so happened to be an even amount of people in the room, and Chris told them all to pair off with the person directly in front of them.

Jennifer was mildly disappointed, as she seemed to already be losing her recently found companionship with this forced partnering. She walked toward the blonde girl across from her and offered a weak half smile. Jennifer was trying to be warm, but she had a feeling her face was suggesting more of a well-I-guess-I-don’t-have-a-say-in-this look. It was the same kind of smile one of two team leaders in a high school gym class might give you when it’s his turn to pick and you’re the last one standing.

“Hi,” Jennifer tried to warm up her smile as she extended a hand to the girl, “I’m Jennifer.” The girl reminded her of Baby Spice, minus the slutty attire and pigtails.

“Emma,” she said quietly.

No way, Jennifer thought, wasn’t that Baby Spice’s real name? She wished for the instant gratification of a quick Google, and she wondered if she’d ever stop wanting to Google and Instagram things every hour on the hour.

The brief introduction was all they had time for, though, because Chris was already separating them again. Those who were from Emma’s line were directed to make themselves comfortable beneath the oak tree, while Jennifer, Karen, Matt, and the rest of their group followed Chris back to her teen hangout of an office.

When they walked in the room seemed brighter than it had been earlier, and at a second glance, Jennifer realized it was because the shiny, white walls had been wiped clean.

“Take a seat for now,” Chris said as she spread her arms out and stepped to the side.

“We’re going to do a mini-meditation.” She continued as Jennifer planted herself beside Karen on the velvety green couch. “By now, your partners have been given their own instructions… to send you a message. Your job is to receive that message.”

A few people were exchanging skeptically raised eyebrows, one guy rolled his eyes shaking his head slowly back and forth, someone nearby shrugged their shoulders at him and returned their attention to Chris, who was making her way to an empty beanbag chair towards the room’s center. She practically fell into it on one arm, stretched herself out like a cat, and crossed her ankles.

“Before we begin, I just want you all to know that you can feel free to get up at any time. These messages can be fleeting, and as soon as you sense something, I encourage you to note it on the walls.”

Everyone started looking around the room, a couple with confused looks on their faces. “They’re dry erase boards,” Chris clarified before anyone could ask, “you’ll find markers scattered around, take your pick. Any words, images, shapes, feelings, sounds… anything that comes to you, make sure to record it on the wall. This is a way to communicate more than it’s a test of your artistic capabilities… so please don’t hold back. We welcome chicken scratch and stick figures.

Chris paused as she looked around the room with a smirk on her face, and Jennifer wondered if she might be waiting for her audience to laugh. “Any questions?” she finally asked.

Jennifer had a few: Are you serious right now? How do you expect us to do that exactly? Is this for real, or have I somehow found myself in an American accented episode of Black Mirror?, but they all came out sounding incredulous in her mind, so she remained silent.

When no one uttered a word, Chris went on, “Close your eyes and clear your mind by focusing on your breath, like we’ve been doing, and once you’re relaxed, bring your attention to your partner. Imagine them sitting in the grass beneath the Oak tree, you’re standing in front of them, you look down at your hands and notice that they’re semi-transparent; you’re in the Oak Room in spirit.” Chris quickened her pace, “now merge into your partner, become one with them, feel what they’re feeling, hear what they’re hearing…”

Despite the energy in Chris’s voice, it seemed to be getting more distant in Jennifer’s ears, and suddenly she heard another voice… it was slightly familiar, but she couldn’t place it. “Imagine them in your mind’s eye, whisper your message, whisper your message, whisper your message…” but now that voice was fading away too, and Jennifer was sitting down on top Emma, falling into her body—

A red umbrella, it’s handle up in the air, flashed into Jennifer’s mind, and though she saw no hand holding it steady, it was balanced perfectly like a non-spinning top. And before she even knew what she was doing, Jennifer found herself at the board drawing what she’d seen. When she was done, she was embarrassed to see several sets of eyes staring at her curiously. She quickly made her way back to the couch, noting on the way that nobody else had drawn a thing… Jennifer’s upside-down umbrella was the only image that graced the walls.

“Very good,” Chris mouthed to her, and then out loud, “I’m going to give you 5 more minutes to focus on the message your partners are sending you, and then I’m going to ask you all to doodle your findings on the board… whether or not you think you’ve received anything.”

Someone sighed loudly, frustrated. Jennifer let out her own sigh; though hers was one of relief.

As everyone else focused with furrowed brows, Jennifer reimagined the experience she’d just had. It was a strange thing to admit, but this vivid umbrella had felt like it’d come from outside of her. She’d always had a vivid imagination, could create and see things in her mind’s eye… but she couldn’t trace this ‘vision’ – for lack of a better term – back through any stream of consciousness that’d come from her own thoughts. It was like a unicorn darting out from a herd of elephants.

“Ok,” Chris called out, “time’s up. Whether you think you have answers or not, go on, grab some markers and head to a clean space on the wall.”

A chorus of sighs and groans sounded as everyone stood and trudged over to the boards.

“You haven’t failed yet, so don’t make assumptions,” Chris said, “just write or draw the first thing that pops into your head. This is your first attempt at something you’ve probably never done before, and just like with any other skill, some of you will find your strengths in different areas. We’re all like radios, and you’ll find that you tune into certain stations more easily than others. Right now we’re just experimenting with the dial to see what we can pick up on.”

Karen had a blue marker and was rapidly scribbling a manifesto in tiny letters. Jennifer couldn’t read any of it from her spot on the couch. Next to Karen, Matt was adding pigtails to one of the 5 stick figures he’d drawn. A few others were adding their own embellishments to the wall, but more than half of the class stood stationary in front of a blank space.

“Don’t think about it,” Chris said to those paralyzed people, and she snapped her fingers as she went on, “first thing you think right now, put it on the board. We’re just playing a game here. There’s no penalty for a wrong answer. The only way you can fail here is if you don’t try.” That finally got the few remaining stragglers to add their own hasty additions in an effort to return to their seats quickly.

“Good job everyone.” Chris made eye contact with each and every person in the room before she finally dismissed them to lunch. Apparently they’d be going over their work once they’d reassembled later that afternoon. Jennifer looked forward to that with a mixed sense of excitement and dread, like she was just cresting the peak of the tallest point on a rollercoaster, waiting for the inevitable drop.

Karen looped her arm around Jennifer’s and leaned into her, “if we hurry up and eat we’ll have enough time to do our nails before the next meet,” she whispered conspiratorially.

***

“So what was all that you were writing on the board?” Jennifer asked as she stretched her arm out to Karen.

Karen applied a mauve polish to Jennifer’s pointer finger in three quick, neat strokes and moved on to her middle finger. Without looking up she said, “The lyrics to a song that was running through my head.”

“What song?”

“Let it Go.”

“From Frozen?”

“Yup.” She was already done painting the nails on Jennifer’s right hand, and reached out for her left.

“Do you think that has anything to do with your partner’s ‘message?’ ”

“I dunno.” Then after a pause and another couple of painted fingernails, “but I guess we’ll find out,” Karen said finishing off on Jennifer’s pinky and finally looking up. She shrugged. “The real question is,” she said as she rummaged through her box of polish and pulled out a trio of bottles, one after the other, and laid them out on the bedspread in between them, “Red Red Wine, Lotus, or Garnet Star?”

Jennifer hunched over and squinted at them, the hues were nearly indiscernible in the dim indoor light. “What’s wrong with the color you have on now?” she asked as she picked them up and twisted to get a better look beneath the lampshaded light.

“Uh, they’re chipped,” Karen said, in a way that implied Jennifer was a bit thick, and thrust her ring finger towards her to prove it.

Again, Jennifer found herself in a game of find the difference searching Karen’s pristine nail for a defect. Finally she noticed a minuscule amount of missing polish on one corner of her squarely shaped nails. “Ahh,” Jennifer said, returning her gaze to the trio of dark purpley reddish colors in her hand. “This may seem like a dumb question, but, why not just paint over the chip? Or just redo that one nail?”

“I mean I might in a pinch, if I had somewhere to be,” Karen snorted, “but what else do we have to do?”

Jennifer nodded and handed her the color labeled “Lotus.” All three colors were too dark in Jennifer’s opinion, but that one was a shade brighter than the others.

As Karen silently began scrubbing at her nails with a cotton ball, Jennifer blew on her own nails, contemplating whether or not she should pursue the topic further. Karen seemed completely uninterested in the strange exercise they’d just performed, as if they’d just come out of a math class where they were learning obvious facts like two plus two equals four, and it was all mundane enough to be forgotten. But Jennifer had experienced something profound; something unexplainable. She’d had an out of body experience. She’d had a vivid vision! Like she was straight out of the pages of some supernatural thriller, playing the role of the reluctant psychic being drawn into a murder mystery. Even though the validity of what she’d seen had yet to be officially confirmed, Jennifer held a strange certainty that it would be.

 

[Conclusion:]

Don’t worry, my friends, there’s much more to come. If you’re listening to this in the week that it goes live, you can expect Part 2 of Disconnected next week. If you’re listening to this from the future, it’s you’re lucky day, and you can dive into Part 2 right now!

Thank you to Sean Howard for inspiring me with your art and for your generosity in sharing it with us as this podcast’s cover art. Please, please, please, check that out when you get a minute, and visit Sean over at fableandfolly.com to discover new fiction podcasts. I’d recommend you check the show notes to find a link to the rest of Sean’s Levitation series, too, I promise you won’t be sorry!

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Art Ink – 12 – The Origin of Somewhere in the Middle – A Film by Writer, Producer, Director Nathan Ives

 

 

Links from the Show at a Glance:

 

Artist: Nathan Ives

Title of Documentary: Somewhere in the Middle – Watch Somewhere in the Middle on Amazon

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/MuleFilms/

 

 

Also mentioned in this episode:

 

Griffin House’s song: City River Lights

 

Movie: A Christmas in New York

 

Movie: The Basement

 

Singer-songwriter: Griffin House

 

Actor: Jasika Nicole

 

Guitar Player: Aaron Tap

 

Paper Sculptor: Jeff Nishinaka

 

Painter: Dan McCaw

 

Art Ink Submission Guidelines: rebekahnemethy.com/artinksubs

 

 

 

Art Ink Podcast Transcript:

 

[Intro:]

 

Hello my friends, thank you for tuning into another episode of Art Ink. When I was still in the imagination phase of creating this podcast I had daydreams of featuring not just visual art, but also music and dance, knitting and embroidery, movies and books. I’ve been hustling so much to get each episode out on time it’s left me featuring artwork that’s limited to my small perspective. That’s not to say I don’t absolutely love the art and the artists I’ve selected so far, but what I am saying is that I’m just 1 person in a universe of what sometimes feels like infinite artists, and sometimes the only way for me to open up to a new creation is for YOU to reach out to me.

 

That’s why I’m thrilled today to introduce you to writer, director, and producer Nathan Ives whose latest film, “Somewhere in the Middle,” just released a few days ago. He was gracious enough to give us an insider’s look at how the film came to be, but before we dive into his story, let me give you a little taste of what it’s all about.

 

 

[Art Description:]

 

 

Somewhere in the Middle,” is a documentary that digs into the lives of 5 artists who you’ve probably never heard of, but have all made a legitimate career from their creative work. Two musicians, an actor, a painter, and a paper sculptor all share stories that illuminate what it’s really like to have a career in the arts. In a culture that sees artists as either superstars or starving, I found this to be a refreshing look at the reality of being a full-time artist.

 

With that, I’m going to narrate the story that Nathan sent in about what sparked his idea to create this film and a bit about the struggles he overcame to complete it.

 

[Story:]

 

River City Lights’ blew me away. The song is simple, beautiful, heart wrenching, and, to me, a perfect song. To this day I’m mesmerized when I listen to it or hear Griffin House play it live. For a few minutes I escape the craziness and drift into a melancholy oasis. There are a handful of songs in my life that have this effect on me, most I discovered in my teens, a few precious ones, more recently.

 

In 2016 I was directing ‘A Christmas In New York,’ and needed a song for the closing credits. I reached out to Griffin, having met him at a few of his shows, and he was gracious enough to write one for the film.

 

We developed what I would call a professional friendship. We’re not on one another’s Holiday card list, but when he’s in town, we’ll chat before or after his show about music, films, and getting by as an artist.

 

On one such occasion I made a comment about how impressed I was that he’d found a balance between staying true to his art and making a legitimate living. Griffin replied with one of his humble, sheepish grins, and a ‘thanks, man.’

 

Then he continued and said, ‘but you know, I was playing at The New York City Winery a few weeks ago, it was a sold out, like three hundred people or something. Really fun show. Afterwards this couple comes up to me, and this happens all the time, they said ‘we really love your music and we just know you’re going to make it someday!’

 

Griffin owns a house in Nashville and his music is the primary source of income for his family. He spends a couple of weeks on the road playing shows followed by a couple of weeks at home spending time with his family and working on new material. Sounds like a miserable life that no one would want to live… or, wait, does it sound like a life many people would dream of living?

 

Our conversation got me thinking about what it means to be a ‘successful’ artist. Over the next couple of months the question kept drifting into my psyche at traffic lights, in the shower, and other random places. Eventually it occurred to me that it was something I wanted to explore further.

 

Around that time, I had just completed a horror film, ‘The Basement,’ and my wife and I had our second child. I needed a project smaller in scope than a full feature film, that I could do in my free time, in and around changing diapers. At which point the seed of the idea for ‘Somewhere In The Middle’ was born.

 

I reached out to Griffin first, since the idea originated with him, and he agreed to be interviewed. One of my favorite people on this big planet was next, the actor, Jasika Nicole, who I had worked with previously on a film. My friend Paul is Matt Nathanson’s tour manager and recommended I interview Aaron Tap, Matt’s longtime guitar player. I was introduced to paper sculptor Jeff Nishinaka through the cinematographer I’ve worked with through the years, Ken Stipe, and Jeff, in turn, introduced me to the painter, Dan McCaw.

 

All five met my criteria of not being household names, but who made a legitimate living solely through their art.

 

There, I had my subjects. All that was left to do was to interview them all, write all of the moments and ideas I loved on index cards, lay the index cards on our dining room table, and stand over them, sipping a cup of Earl Gray tea, nibbling on cookies, until I figured out exactly what this film would be.

 

Once I had a general structure, it was off to sit for many hours in a dark room with the editor, Brady, and cut the pieces together. Once that was done and we had a rough cut of the film, I decided, without question, it was the worst thing, perhaps, that I had ever seen.

 

I then went home to my wife, talked about what a failure I was, and moped around the house like Eeyore for a few days. At first, she was sympathetic and did her best to console me, but given that she’d just given birth to a ten pound child, understandably, it didn’t last long.

 

A few days and ideas later, I went back in with Brady and we re-cut the film. It was much better, it suddenly felt again like a project that just might be worth finishing. As we began laying in the score from Pat O’Brien, it really started to come to life and I was beginning to think that this might actually be a film I’d be proud of.

 

From there, it was off to The Garrison, both my producing partner on the project and the post production facility. There we did the sound, color, and animated the titles. To be clear that’s the equivalent of saying, we just painted the house, put on the roof, and did the landscaping. It’s a lot of work and took about six weeks.

 

In the end, Somewhere In The Middle is a film I’m very proud of. What strikes me most about it is the honesty and vulnerability of the subjects. They really pull no punches and give us a window into their lives, the good, the bad, and the ugly. They are hard working, flawed, kind, extraordinarily talented human beings who, even though they may not be among the fortunate few who make it to superstar status, are redefining what it means to be a successful artist.

 

I hope the film will serve as an inspiration and education for those considering a career in the arts. For parents of a child considering such a path, I hope it offers a different perspective. For those who are working artists, I hope it offers that ‘thank God I’m not alone’ feeling.

 

There are moments in the film that will resonate with anyone in the arts, but many of those moments are as much about life as they are about art. I’ll leave you with the one from the seventy six year old painter, Dan McCaw, who said ‘In the end, we’re only what we’ve allowed ourselves to be.’

 

 

[Conclusion:]

 

So, another reason I found “Somewhere in the Middle,” such a refreshing film is that, until now, podcasts were my only source of insight into the world of full-time artists. The mass media rarely cover anyone who isn’t already a household name, and I don’t think there’s a movie out there that doesn’t regurgitate either the rags to riches cliché and/or the starving artist stereotype. A new story is long overdue, and I’m so glad that Nathan is helping to tell it.

 

Despite how much I learned from these career creatives, I actually resonate with Nathan’s story, the part that I had to dig a little deeper to pull out of him, after he submitted his story. And because I think many of you will resonate with this too, I’m going to share.

 

As I let you know in the last episode I’m back to temporarily working a day job to pay off some of the debt I racked up in my yearlong journey of jumping into voiceover and to fund a new soundproof booth so I don’t have the urge murder my neighbors when they want to mow their lawns. Am I a failure because I decided to make some regular income from a job that’s not quite as satisfying… sometimes I think so, honestly, but I know that’s a culturally programmed mindset. And despite my intention to turn off the audiobook and voice over work since June, the jobs haven’t stopped coming, so for creating a mindset of success for myself, that’s been really validating. So really success is so very personal. Some artists want the paparazzi, to me that would be an absolute nightmare, I just want to be able to control my own schedule and work in yoga pants.

 

This is Nathan’s 4th film according to IMDB, his 5th if you count another movie I came across, that, for some reason, is not linked up there. Maybe there are even more I don’t know about. But the point is he worked with Vivica A. Fox on his very first movie, and he worked for 3 years completely off of his creative work. When I asked him about the experience of his own career via email Nathan wrote:

 

“Currently, my wife and I own a boat salvage yard that I manage and she has a good job in healthcare. Luckily, we have very good employees and the boat business only takes a few hours a day of my time. The rest I can focus on film work. 

 

The best things about my time as an independent artist were the flexibility and working on the creative elements full time. When I wasn’t shooting, I was down at my favorite coffee shop writing or prepping for upcoming projects – that was fun. The worst things, by far, were the inconsistency of work (and pay) and taking a lot of jobs I really didn’t want to do, just for the money. I’m much happier now, balancing my time between a business that I also love (boats), that is much more consistent, and film. These days, the film work I do, goes towards the kid’s college funds or a remodel on the house.”

 

I’m so happy he shared that with me, because it just goes to show you that an artist’s idea of what success is, is as nuanced as the people behind the art.

 

I know that many of you listening today are artists, and if you resonate with the idea of helping to shatter the starving artist paradigm there’s something you can do to help:

 

Please watch “Somewhere in the Middle” on Amazon and leave an honest review. Your reviews will go a long way in making sure this movie will be seen by as many people as possible. I’ll have a link in the shownotes that’ll take you right there.

 

Thanks in advance for your support! Ok, my friends, that’s all you’re going to hear from me today, but before I go, I wanted to let you know to stick around for just another minute if you want to hear a little teaser from the movie. Ok, I’m signing off, but as usual, I’ll be back with more in a couple of weeks.

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Art Ink – 10 – Sandstorm at Sea

Links from the Show at a Glance:

 

Artist: Me (Rebekah Nemethy)

Title of Art: Sandstorm at Sea

Artist’s Website: rebekahnemethy.com

Instagram: @rebekahnemethy

 

Melissa Dinwiddie’s book The Creative Sandbox Way (check out the first 50 pages for free!)

 

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Art Ink Podcast Transcript:

 

[Intro:]

 

Welcome back to a brand new episode of Art Ink! I feel a bit like I’m cheating this week… because despite my best efforts to sit down and write something new over the past couple of weeks, I’ve barely had time to sleep let alone get into a creative or productive groove. I have a bad habit of putting too much on my plate… I’m working on it.

 

But!…

 

The good news is that it’s nearly my favorite time of the year: Creative Sandbox Retreat time! As you’re listening to this, I’m packing my bags with comfy clothes, blank notebooks, and maybe even my camera, to head to California, where Melissa Dinwiddie hosts her annual creative retreat about an hour south of San Jose. This is either my 4th or 5th year returning… I honestly lost count hahaha. Time just slips out of my grasp when I’m there, I’m afraid to admit it, but I’ll be on my way home before I can blink I’m sure.

 

So why is that good news for you? Well it’s my intention to crank out some stories while I’m there. As many as I can manage in the 5 days I have.

 

Today’s story is from my own blog archive, which, I realized gives me the opportunity to fill you in on more Art Ink history, because what you may not know is that this show is an expanded audio version of what I was already doing on my own blog for my own art a few years ago. And I actually have to thank Melissa for that original blog concept too, because if it weren’t for her “Tiny and Daily” teachings (which you can find out more about in her book The Creative Sandbox Way), well, if it weren’t for the “Tiny and Daily” concept, I don’t think I ever would’ve started the Photo and 100 Words Project.

 

I needed a way to regularly get my art out into the world that wasn’t too overwhelming. Writing 100 words wasn’t a huge deal… but the idea of doing it daily was still a bit scary for me, especially because I was creating art AND writing a complimentary story to go with it. (sounds familiar huh?) So I decided to go with tiny and weekly instead: one photo and one short story of less than 100 words. It was 2014 when I started blogging weekly, writing mostly narrative nonfiction with a poem sprinkled in here and there, and I kept that up for well over a year.

 

Even back then I wanted to get other artists involved, though. In fact, I started an Instagram account for the Photo and 100 words project, too, though I never actually posted to that account.

 

A few years into it, around the time my new-found fascination with capturing tiny reflections spurred an abstract series of photos on the blog, my stories started to stretch past the 100-word mark, and the Photo and 100 Words Project evolved into Artsy Reflections.

 

By the time my blog trickled out to a standstill, I knew I wanted to give my stories an actual voice in the podcast medium, but it was too scary to put the whole focus on my own art and personal stories… it just seemed too selfish. But the spark for Art Ink was there… and if you listened to the very first episode of this show, you already know that story.

 

So today’s featured photo came from my Reflection series… let me recreate it in your brain before we move on:

 

[Art Description:]

 

If you squint at this abstract photo, it could pass for a yellowed map. It’s mostly blue and reddish-brown, with slashes of coppery gold hovering above and blending into the rest of the piece.

 

Imagine you’re on a boat in a Caribbean sea, approaching a red-brown desert island as you sail between two tan sand bars. Now imagine you’re in the middle of a sandstorm. Wet clumps of sand cling to your eyelashes, creating coppery vertical haloes as your watery eyes squint against the wind, distorting the scene ahead of you.

 

Sandstorm at Sea is what I call this photograph, and it’s this same title that sparked the following memory…

 

[Story:]

 

What are you more afraid of: a stranger’s opinion of you or death? The answer might not be as obvious as you think…

 

It was day three of our seaside vacation and we were just hitting the beach for the first time. By some miracle, the sun was peeking out from behind the clouds; despite the 10-day forecast that showed nothing but dark clouds and plentiful rain.

 

I had been under the covered balcony, starring out at the ocean, when it finally happened, and I wasted no time in trading my pjs for a tankini and digging my toes into the sand. Okay… I did make everyone pose for photos first, you should just assume that’s a given.

 

The waves were pounding the shore and most of the boys didn’t hesitate to jump in. I wandered along the wet shoreline feeling the warm water sweep over my feet. They were calling for me to come in, but I wasn’t so sure I could handle the stormy seas. I can swim, but I’m far from a mermaid.

 

It took a lot of convincing and a bit of daring me to get me to walk out any further. My boyfriend at the time insisted that he would protect me, and I only had to get past where the waves broke and into the safety of his arms.

 

Cautiously, I ventured deeper into the ocean. I was knee deep one second, but then, suddenly, white water was washing over my entire body and I found myself butt down back on the beach.

 

You’d think that my fear would give me some instinct to brace myself, I mean, I must have braced myself, but I had no idea how powerful those waves were.

 

I went back to wandering in the safe zone for a while. I don’t know exactly how long it was before I noticed… but I’d been strutting my stuff in front of strangers for more than a few minutes, when I finally brushed my hands over my butt to find a heaping pile of sand that had been scooped into my bathing suit bottom as I’d been pushed up the beach.

 

I rushed back into the ocean, instinctively, to rinse my bottom out. Apparently, the fear of people seeing me in something that resembled a saggy diaper, and the connotations that came with that, were much more threatening than drowning.

 

 

[Conclusion:]

 

Yup, that’s the true story of one of my first and, understandably, last experiences at the beach. Shout out to the power of the ocean to help me face my fear of public embarrassment AND my fear of being pummeled into a pulp all in one day. Hmmm… maybe I should visit the shore more often.

 

Well I do love the ocean, the sound of waves, the feel of the soft sand on bare feet, and the salty wind whipping inland… it’s all so magical, isn’t it? That must’ve been why I was distracted for so long. I’m giggling even now imagining the scene from a strangers point of view: look at the smile on that girl’s face, she seems intoxicated by sunshine… or perhaps self-satisfied? Oh, wow, yeah, probably self satisfied, because it looks like she just relieved herself… took a dump right in her bathing suit!

 

Ok, I know I’m letting my imagination get away with me… but I hope that gave you a laugh. My embarrassment is your entertainment.

 

And if you’re antsy for more entertainment you don’t actually have to wait two weeks. I’ve been hesitant to put this out there because I didn’t want it to seem like Art Ink has this ulterior motive… but the fact is that I’ve actually been on Patreon sharing my work since 2014, and before I go any further I have to send out my heartfelt gratitude to Yadira, Alice, and Margie for being my longest running supporters. Yadira and Alice have been there from the very beginning which means they’ve given me a whopping 55 months of support! And Margie has been supporting me for 44 months! Thank you ladies for always believing in the work I put out into the world, whether that means my work as an animal activist, my art, or a new podcast, you have been there all along. I so appreciate that, more than you could ever know.

 

So I’ve been on Patreon for almost 5 years, and patrons have trickled in and out as my work has evolved, and I’m thrilled to let you know that I’ve revamped my offerings once again. So getting back to how you don’t have to wait to get more entertainment, I actually recorded the first 100 blog posts from my Photo and 100 Words Project, AKA Artsy Reflections, and turned it into an exclusive audiobook that’s available only on Patreon! Not only that but I also added in some behind the scenes commentary, which again, is something you won’t be able to hear anywhere else.

 

For as little as $1 per month you’ll get instant access to all 100 chapters of my Artsy Reflections audio book, and you’ll join my small community of Patrons that get early access to all of my content, including new episodes of Art Ink.

 

There are even more rewards if you’re feeling more generous like a blooper reel of my first few audiobook projects, free copies of all newly released audiobooks I narrate, and, here’s a big one, access to digital copies of all of my fine art photography in my Patron-Only Art Library.

 

There’s actually a whole lot more, but seeing as my intro and conclusion this week are far surpassing the story, I’ll leave the rest for you to discover on your own. Visit rebekahnemethy.com/patreon to get the details on all the fun bonuses you can get your hands on. You’ll find a link in the shownotes.

 

Alright my friends, I’m off to my creative retreat so I can write you some more art-inspired stories. Love ya’ll! Thank you for listening!

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Art Ink – 9 – Storm of Ages: Nightmare – Sneak Listen of Chapter 1

 

Links from the Show at a Glance:

 

Artist: Ellie M. Jalbert

Title of Art: The Girl in the Red Dress (painting that doubles as the cover of Nightmare, the first book in the Storm of Ages series)

Artist’s Website: stormofages.com

Instagram: @storm.of.ages

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/StormofAges/

 

Listen to Storm of Ages: Nightmare (Book 1) for free with a 30-day trial on Audible

 

Listen to Storm of Ages: Metamorphosis (Book 2) for free with a 30-day trial on Audible

 

And if you want more when you’re done with those, the third book in the Storm of Ages series is available to read on Amazon.

 

Read Storm of Ages: Origins (Book 3)

 

 

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Art Ink Podcast Transcript:

 

[Intro:]

 

Hello my friends! I have a special treat for you in this episode of Art Ink, because today’s featured artist is not only a painter, and an art therapist, but she’s also author of the Storm of Ages series, which I am lucky enough to have had the opportunity to narrate for her. Ellie M. Jalbert is an amazing storyteller, so I’m absolutely thrilled to have her permission to share the first chapter of her book, Nightmare, with you today.

 

What’s interesting about Ellie’s painting is not just the fact that it doubles as Nightmare’s book cover, but that it was created long before the Storm of Ages saga hit bookshelves. She painted it for an art class, and it was her professor who dubbed it The Girl in the Red Dress.

 

Let me try to paint with words what Ellie has created:

 

 

[Art Description:]

 

You can only see the back of The Girl in the Red Dress. Her left arm is wrapped around a white pillar. The elegant dress is tight at the top; it’s held up with three thin straps, fanned out around each of her shoulders, revealing two triangles of pale skin. She sits on the edge of a balcony or window sill, and so the rest of the flowing gown is bunched up at the base of the image. She wears a 5-pointed tiara, and beneath it, golden yellow waves of hair flow down, where the longest strands come to rest at a point in the middle of her lower back.

 

The scene she’s looking at takes up the rest of the space: a wavy, turbulent sea that’s frothing up around the edges of brown patches of earth, some of which hold tilted stone-colored buildings and temples.

 

Ok, with that picture in mind… I hope you enjoy this sneak listen of the Storm of Ages saga…

 

[There’s no transcript for the story this time, but you’re welcome to purchase the kindle or paperback version of the book on Amazon if reading is more your thing =)]

 

 

 

[Conclusion:]

 

So, what did you think of that? Do you want to hear more of Ellie’s book? Well, if you do, I have awesome news for you, you can download the first book for free by signing up for a 30-day trial on Audible… which is also free. So what do you have to lose? I’ll have a link in the shownotes for easy access to your free copy.

 

Storm of Ages will eventually be a 7-book series. The first 3 books are out in paperback and for the Kindle, and the first 2 are available to listen to right now.

 

Thank you so much for listening. If you enjoyed this chapter and especially if you go on to hear the full audiobook, make sure you follow Storm of Ages on Facebook or Instagram to be updated on the latest releases and behind the scenes fun.

 

And, of course, a huge shout out goes to Ellie for letting me share this sneak listen with you today. If you haven’t heard the last episode of Art Ink (episode 8) you can listen in on a conversation between Ellie and I discussing the inspiration behind the art AND the books. But, be warned, we do share a few things that might be spoilers… so listen to the books first and come back to that while you’re waiting for us to record book 3… which might be my favorite book so far!

 

Anyway, enough gushing from me, that’s all we have for you today. But check your podcatcher in a couple of weeks for a fresh story in your ears. Until then… ta ta for now!

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Art Ink – 8 – Bonus Conversation with Artist and Author Ellie Jalbert

 

Links from the Show at a Glance:

 

Artist: Ellie M. Jalbert (She wrote, AND painted the covers for, the Storm of Ages series!)

The first 2 books are available as audiobooks via Audible and narrated by yours truly (and you can get them for free with a 30 day trial on Audible)!

 

Listen to Storm of Ages: Nightmare (Book 1) for free

 

Listen to Storm of Ages: Metamorphosis (Book 2) for free

 

And if you want more when you’re done with those, the third book in the Storm of Ages series is available to read on Amazon.

 

Read Storm of Ages: Origins (Book 3)

 

 

Follow Storm of Ages on social media:

 

Instagram: @storm.of.ages

 

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/StormofAges/

 

 

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Art Ink Podcast Transcript:

 

[Intro:]

 

 

Welcome back everyone, I’m your happy pappy host, and I’m so excited to let you all know that I finally have my elevator speech down. Go ahead ask me what I do for a living?

 

::in robotic text to speech:: What do you do?

 

What? I don’t have a co-host and my boyfriend refuses to get behind a mic.

 

Anyway… the next time I have someone trapped in an elevator with me and they ask me what I do for a living I’m going to say: Well I work in a padded room and I talk to myself all day… can you guess what I do for a living?

 

Then they’ll either move to the farthest corner of the elevator assuming I must be schizophrenic, or they’ll be intrigued and ask me for more.

 

Oh, what am I if not schizophrenic? I’m an audiobook narrator.

 

I know, I crack myself up… and I don’t often find myself in elevators talking to strangers so I just felt the need to share here. You’re welcome.

 

But yeah, it probably shouldn’t surprise those of you listening that I’m an audiobook narrator, the truth is reading another writer’s work is so much more fun and less stressful than writing my own books. But I’ve also been a writer my entire life; journaling, blogging, and dabbling in fiction here and there.

 

So far all of the stories you’ve heard have been written, and obviously, performed by me, but today that’s going to change a lil bit.

 

Today’s episode, is not your typical Art Ink episode. And… I’m going to be honest with you… experimentation is definitely in the cards for the future of this show, so get used to it. But, before you go anywhere thinking you got screwed out of a story this week, I want you to know that you’re actually getting 2 episodes today.

 

In just a few minutes I’m going to dive into a conversation with an author friend of mine, and then you’ll get a chance to listen to the first chapter of book 1 in her Storm of Ages series, narrated by yours truly. And I’m telling you this because after editing our conversation I noticed that there may be a few spoilers up ahead – so before you move on, you might want to pause this, listen to the next episode (episode 9) and see if Nightmare pulls you in, and if it does go download the audiobook, listen, and then come back here for some behind the scenes about the inspiration behind the book! The best part is you can get it absolutely free by signing up for a 30-day trial at Audible and as usual, you can find that link in the shownotes.

 

Ok, now that you’ve been warned… or are returning after you took my advice and listened to the book (wasn’t it awesome!?!) I can now lead you into our conversation.

 

It’s been almost exactly a year since I met Ellie Jalbert, and it’s taken me nearly as long to learn how to pronounce her last name (did I get it right Ellie?!). Ellie was one of the first authors I got the chance to work with when I impulsively quit my day job and decided to launch myself into audiobooks full time. She was also the author I’ve bonded with the most. I think if you printed and stacked our emails back and forth to one another we’d have at least a novella, if not a novel.

 

She lovingly signed books for me and mailed them to me along with a pile of Storm of Ages bookmarks. I feel fortunate to say that my job feels more like play than work most days, and with Ellie’s books I felt that even more so, as I got to read the physical copies while I was all snuggled up on my couch.

 

 

So even before I officially launched this podcast, and despite the fact that I didn’t want this show to be interview based, I knew I’d have to have Ellie come on the show, not only because she’s an excellent storyteller, but also because I just had so many questions for her… and how fun would it be, I thought, if I recorded the very first conversation we ever had?!

 

 

[Story: Our conversation is not transcribed… guess you’ll just have to listen =P]

 

 

 

[Conclusion:]

 

Ellie and I have a lot in common. Those of you who have been listening from the beginning of this show know that it took me 2 years to bring this podcast to your ears, so I think it’s safe to say that I get in my own way too. So I want to take a moment to thank those of you out there who support us fumbling creative geniuses. If it weren’t for Ellie’s supportive family and friends Storm of Ages might never have been created and what a tragedy that would be! So thank you to Ellie’s Mom, Pop, her brother Tony, Sister in Law Sarah, and at least one of her BFFs Maggie. I’m sure there are many more of you I don’t know by name, but ya’ll are awesome! By supporting Ellie you also ended up supporting me… doesn’t it feel good to know you all are such gracious patrons of the arts?

 

To those of you who haven’t supported us yet, but really want to you can download your free copy of Storm of Ages: Nightmare by clicking the link in the show notes… and even though it’s free for you, Audible still pays us, so you can support us without even having to open your wallet. Again, you can hear the entire first chapter in the very next episode of this podcast right now, so give it a shot… what do you have to lose?

 

Alright, that’s a wrap… thank you for listening!

 

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